FiveSidedDice - I Remember (Looking Back) Lyrics

I remember my first cigarette
I was about 12 and I thought I was the shit
Lit it up and took a little hit
Even if I tried now I couldn't quit

I remember my first time having sex
I was about 13 I couldn't believe it
Just a minute into it I was dead
Used no condom, got the pill for my girlfriend

I remember my first time seeing meth
I was about 14 in an apartment
They were showing off guns in the basement
I preferred liquor coz at least I could taste it

I remember my first taste of death
Fighting 3 on one like a f*cking idiot
I bled out on a cold pavement
I saw a light and reality was distant

I remember my first suicide attempt
Rushed to a hospital hoping it's my deathbed
They got the poison all out in the end
I wish I could say that I learnt a lesson

I remember losing control again
My seizures got worse and they didn't end
Despite taking Epilem
It took a few years for the nightmares to end

I remember my first rehabilitation
Treatment center after ultimatum
Subject of an intervention
My behavior was in question

I remember my first arrest
Flat back in the cell, eyes on the ceiling
They brought breakfast in the morning
All I tasted was pain and regret

I remember my first betrayal
Now I'll cut you off like a train derailed
I remember my first heartbreak
Now I've learnt everything in life just is that way

Now I move forward
Looking back
And not forgetting a thing
And I'll move on
I'm still intact
Ready for anything
Now I move forward
Looking back
And not forgetting a thing
And I'll move on
I'm still intact
Ready for anything