Problem After All Video (MV)

I'm tryna make the most of my time here
All I wanna do is disappear
Irritable, what is the cause
Maybe I'm the problem after all

Tasting both sides of the track is a blast
Growing in poverty but tryna make good times last
I'm here to leave a mark on this world
And you'll Remember my name or you'll remember my death toll

I grew up on a fluctuation
Little to no one relates to my situation
White boy grow up surrounded by color
Infatuated but never felt love ah

Raised on violence and hatred
Passed down from generation to degeneration
And I'm a byproduct, a defective from the stock
I cant tell you what gushed from my dads cock

Born and bred surrounded
By racist hate and supremacy abundant
Bikers Afrikaner bloed, I'm a soutie
No idea what the f*ck I'm supposed to be

I got a clear idea of what I'm not
Connect the blood stains and you connect the dots
I talk to dead friends in my dreams
Your thriller movies are my reality

I'm tryna make the most of my time here
All I wanna do is disappear
Irritable, what is the cause
Maybe I'm the problem after all

Suicide is something too familiar
2 attempts serious 2 were vinegar
On my wounds screaming
Bruh, get some help
Its in your genetics it's swimming in your blood cells

Rehab, jail, man what does it f*ckin take
Just to put you on a path away from savagery ways
You follow in the footsteps of what you know
Broken, twisted, this is your home

Turn it all around another year goes by
Another held back tear from your eyes
Bottle it up and drink all that shit down
I'm a f*cking joke, I'm the motherf*cking clown

What is my destiny
Pure perpetual pain and no rest for me
I'm on a constant emotional roller-coaster
I climb in my bathtub and drop the toaster

Ahaha, suicide is funny
If you're desensitized to the act and you're running
I guess some of us find some relief
In the fact that no one gives a f*ck if we leave

I'm tryna make the most of my time here
All I wanna do is disappear
Irritable, what is the cause
Maybe I'm the problem after all