Fixedlikewater - I Can't Let You Close Lyrics

Woke up off of a nightmare
Got a little freaked
Wrote a line there
Even while I'm jotting
I'm plotting
Debating on the shit I'm dropping
How my jaws ready start popping
Whats all on my noggin
Can't figure out why I'm still haunted
I get gassed up
Like a rocket I'm launching
But wait
Nothing when I return is
In different status
It's like when I'm not around
Life suspended animation
So when I come back and
Can't feel the changes
My mind starts racing
And my breathing gets anxious
Marijuana emergency
For this anxiety murder me
I can't be fixed with surgery
I'm fixedlikewater
What u heard of me
Nothing I keep my mouth shut
Enigmatic
A habit
When u got a stinger
Leaving poison where
It lingers
I never put a ring
If she put me thru the ringer
Cuz

I can't ever let u close
This I know
I'll get hurt
So u should go
'Cuz I'll hurt u first
On every dreadlock I swear
I don't care
I been hurt too many
Times to feel despair

I been hurt too many times
To find the pleasure
I been laid back far too long
To enjoy the leisure
I been in the cut so long
Circulation severed
'Till I became who I was
And I remembered
I am the only thing in my life
That gotta get better
I'm writing these songs like
I'm writing forever
True fans I write songs
Like I'm writing them letters
No return address
Don't bring my art back to me in
Unless I do a show u can rap w me
Slide feedback my way
I might listen
Cold-blooded when I'm on the
Mic dripping
Ice glisten
In time dimensions
And space
I'll save my own face
Getting high to outer space
Cuz the moon is a Virgo
I miss junior year
And I miss trips to myrtle
I wanna see my Bulbasaur
And Squirtle
I spit on the track
So why i need hurdle

I can't ever let u close
This I know
I'll get hurt
So u should go
'Cuz I'll hurt u first
On every dreadlock I swear
I don't care
I been hurt too many
Times to feel despair

But why niggas wanna
Take from me
Why hoes wanna lie blatantly
I don't even wanna call em hoes
That's the hate in me
What they gave to me
Paved the way for me
To go and treat these hoes
Like lames round me
Voices insane loudly
My head's crowding
I wanna go home
But I hate looking at my phone
It's broken like a bone
And chipped like my heart
Shit made of marble
So the beats hardly startle
Trying to find the light at the end
Of the carpal
'Cuz if that's the tunnel
The light is in my hands
All wrapped in a bundle
I've held something so fragile
Only a few times prefix
Do it one time
I don't hit 'em with a remix
Up at 5 AM like I'm c-sick
All my demons who
I be with
I'm born to rock the boat
What you gotta c-section
So you born seasick
Only busy smoking on greenish
Purple and orange
Fall fashion?
It's on fire and I'm rolling magic
Say again I don't rap w passion
That's the only way u gon
See what happens

I can't ever let u close
This I know
I'll get hurt
So u should go
'Cuz I'll hurt u first
On every dreadlock I swear
I don't care
I been hurt too many
Times to feel despair

Love u fans