Fleez - Coldest Hour (feat. Lyss) Lyrics

I know I'm just a teen
But my heart been black and blue
Strictly from all of the pain
Yeah my life been so insane
Crying in my grandmas lap
What a shame
She would try so hard to keep me tame
Brooke, there's no one else to blame
All these girls you love are lame
You're gonna find someone who loves you
But for now just chase the fame
One day they'll scream your name
You have amazing talent
And nobody else the same
So, one day you'll find your flame
But for now just chase your aims
I'll always be your #1 supporter in the f*cking game
And grandma wasn't wrong
Cause she still supports me to this day
And you could never fix a broken heart
But she always sat and she'd pray
And she'd say, "Brooke, you're a confident one"
But I don't think she knows about
All the times that I was so drunk
All the times I tried to kill myself
Burying myself in all the rum
Blood dripping from my wrist
I would always try to run
From feelings reminisced
That I wish I couldn't feel
Yeah, they all say they hate me
Maybe I'm just way too real
Yeah, I got a lot of baggage
But depression never heals
It never healed

I feel so broken now
Ya left me lonely
In the coldest hour
I got a lot of issues
But I don't know how
I guess they all come out
When you're not around
When you're not around

Lately I don't feel like myself
Yeah, they all try to help me
But I don't want any help
And I don't want nobody else
Sometimes I wish I never fell
Numbers dropping every time I step up on the scale
And grandma's hard to talk to now
Because she found the alcohol
And now she knows I'm just not myself
But still she tries so hard
She tells me you should love yourself
Damn, I wish I really did
But have you seen myself?
Always beat myself up
Even when I do excel
Yeah, I wish I wasn't like this
Happiness, it always fails
Everyday's a work in progress
They just wanna see me fail
And I know I do sometimes
But one day I'll prevail
Now I got an armored shell around my heart
To protect me from the broken
To protect me from the dark
Sometimes I feel like I'm just living in a hell
But I know it's not the end
The pain I spits the Holy grail, uh

I feel so broken now
Ya left me lonely
In the coldest hour
I got a lot of issues
But I don't know how
I guess they all come out
When you're not around
When you're not around