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I can see florescent lights flashing
Sitting here in this dark and desolate room
Darkened, insolent
Headed Straight
Head first toward my impending Doom
Cold impervious walls that seem to come alive
As tears fall in succession
And this box made of concrete
Glitters in nothing more then glamorous gloom
Manifest
A convalescent tapestry of lifeless lessons
Organically mottling
Blood settling
Aged cardiopulmonary arrest
Death waits on a failing soul
An F on your final test
In an instant here then gone
Like an overdose that's prolonged
By methamphetamines that digest
Sensing that I have no options
No choices autonomy's gone
Depression sets in and states that its here
In a world that wants me gone
I knew I was different
One to smile, jump to saddened romantic break up songs
But now I just wanna break up and wake up
From a real time nightmare that's prolonged
Spiritual strength is gone
Falling to my knees
My ankles have gone weak
I beg and I plead to the Lord
How do I press forward and uplift my wife?
When in my life I no longer feel strong
And this compressing, repressing vice grip keeps clamping down on my spine
Twisting on and on and on
Praying that your not occupied
That you still have time for the little one
That long ago recognized that for him you died on that hill
Nailed to a cross to become the resurrected son
In the night I look up at the sky
And I'm hypnotized at the fact that it's full
Yet empty to the sight
And that we represent the moon
A beacon to rise as the sun sets
A beautiful creation made like none in the Horizon
But only shines when blessed with the rays of the sun
Never more apparent then when I look into her eyes and
See a little bit of heaven in the form of affection and compassion
An angel with no desire to express
Anything besides love and endless Passion
Gravitating to a solution
But inebriation is not an improvement
As it is an inclination that leads to cul-de-sac with a dead end
A conclusion
An incarceration barred from the mind
Behind bars we all lose sense of time
Wait a minute
But there's no waiting when anxiety and grief
Turn into your confined casket and your living in it
So when I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
And I pray to the Lord for peace in me
And I thank the Lord for piecing me together
Because I shattered a long time ago
Broken and tethered
A young lost soul with nowhere to go
But my father extends his hands and leads through turbulent times
Until my time comes and I go
Home
[Isaiah 41:10]
Do not fear, for I am with you
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you
Surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand