Found in December - Worst in Me Lyrics

I found all the worst in me

What do you want from me?
I've had enough, these past few years, I gave it all I had
But it was never enough and now I hide from the fact that I can't hide at all
Feeling subliminal
I put a lock on my mind to stop myself from getting in, now I can't get out
Stuck in my head and it's dark up here
But I don't mind it here

Sometimes it's safe in here
But sometimes I dig straight down
And find shit I never thought I'd see
How a young boy can think so evil
At the same time, see the gardens of Eden
I need to focus right, I need to find the light
I need to find myself, trapped in my own paradise
I think I found the worst in me
I think I found...

I found all the worst in me
I can't find where I need to be
There's a fine line between who I am and what you need
I stopped looking for the best in me

How in the f*ck am I meant to do this?
If I found the worst, am I here to prove it?
As time goes by, I truly believe it
I don't wanna waste another second here, no
I think I'm out of control, woah
Stuck in a dark place, oh no
I need to get myself out of this hole
I'm sick and tired of being tired
And I'm missing what I haven't found yet
All I found was the worst, all the worst in me

I found all the worst in me
I stopped looking for the best in me

I found all the worst in me
I can't find where I need to be
There's a fine line between who I am and what you need
I stopped looking for the best in me
I found all the worst in me
I can't find where I need to be
There's a fine line between who I am and what you need
I stopped looking for the best in me