Before I Die Video (MV)

I don't know why I'm even alive
Nobody sees my vision lost my will to survive
This paper's my truth I let the ink fly
Let the words here within be my will if I die
Don't cry momma, I'm still here for now
Promise I'll be the best I just don't know how
Really wanna buy my family a brand new house
Falling for the trap of cheddar like a brand new mouse
That's just me back at it
Same old story like a f*ckin drug addict
Cause I really f*ckin hate it but I really gotta have it
When your dream's so close feel like you can reach and grab it maybe snatch it
But you're just a little bit scared
If ya get it then ya got it what do you do when you're there
How to keep the dream alive I'm not even prepared to go beyond the reach of giants where nobody has dared

Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust

Nobody cares they just stare in disgust
And discuss "is she high, is she trippin, or what"
Got the scars on her wrist from the times that she cut
Catch a glimpse and assume life must really be tough
But she doesn't wanna die just wants to call God's bluff
Watch the blood flow while she smoking on some potent stuff
Only time she feels alive is when she cuts or f*cks
Dreams about hearse black painted limo trucks
Different point of view but the scene's the same
Life sucks get the picture then a broken frame
Tryna dance with the devil through the fire and flames
Cold steel it's real life feels like a game
I hope you break the stigma that comes with your name
I hope you find somebody else that you can blame for your pain
Hope your dreams come true and you stop slicing your veins
Hope the fact that people love you finally enters your brain

Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust

We all got some different shit to deal with
Feel this, even the strongest people ain't fearless
Real shit, life is just an after-school field trip
Take what you need even if you gotta steal it
Sometimes quitting seems so appealing
Telling myself that I've reached the ceiling
Cold day in Hell when I'm not the villain
Not Vince but I got a big fish to reel in
The power the pleasure the pain and the pussy
One day Ill be the person that I know that I should be
Gotta stop getting caught up in the way that it could be
I'm white so I can walk around in black jeans and a hoodie
So sick of the world it's melting my brain
Hurricanes, heroin, and these racist games
President what the f*ck making bogus claims
No wonder people sticking needles all up in their veins

Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I'm revived come alive blowin Ls at dusk
Follow me through the fire if you feel that you must
Be advised takes a while to earn my trust