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I keep getting carried away from my emotions
A drowning sorrow feeds a sweeping disaster
Live in the moment
Don't let grief get in the way
Heed what they say
Just smile until it sticks

A plate so clean, filth aside
Swollen legs
Consciousness temporary
Exhausted mentally
I need to stop and rest
I want this to be humor

The end is soon
This life is over

So much regret
I shove away
Try to suppress it
But it always finds its way

Not to say I'm not grateful
Or to say I should be dead
I've just become so hateful
What there once was love
There's a sickness instead

Can't say, even if I was alone
Can't say, even if I found the words
Can't say how
Can't say how long it's been

Distract me from what I can't handle
It's caught up to me
There's no way I can succeed

Can you blame me
It won't be the first or last
I don't want to hold you back
To be alive