I've Been Crying Video (MV)

I've been crying for the first time, it's been a f*cking while right now
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air
Feeling like these walls keep closing
I've been crying for the first time now, yeah yeah
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air, feeling like these walls keep closing in
I'm not waking up in the morning
I'm taking this leap and I'm falling
Don't tell me that things will get better
I know that I cannot believe it forever
For closure with God I have searched
But faggots aren't welcomed at church
I've spent all my life being told that I'm wrong now I'm broken, my spirit is sparse
And I've been spending some time doing nothing really
Writing songs to tell my parents how I'm really feeling
Got the whole world at my feet but I'm not feeling it
Sometimes you just know you gotta pack it up and leave yeah yeah
I've been crying for the first time, it's been a f*cking while now
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air
Feeling like these walls keep closing in
I've been crying for the first time now, yeah yeah
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air, feeling like these walls keep closing in
I'm feeling far from open
My bitch just left me broken
I'm on my own, I feel alone with every passing minute
A f*cking junkie, way I shoot their love inside my veins
And every time they leave me I just seem to feel the f*cking same
Always feel the f*cking pain
Always feeling stuck again
Take a look inside my f*cking brain, dog, I'm so deranged
Hold my chain, need restraint
F*ck you mean, I'm to blame?
It's always been this way so I ain't never spect this shit to change
I've been crying for the first time, it's been a f*cking while now
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air
Feeling like these walls keep closing in
I've been crying for the first time now, yeah yeah
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air, feeling like these walls keep closing in
I don't really need you
I don't really need your help
No, no, no
Yeah, I don't really need you
I don't really need your help
And I don't wanna fight no more
I don't wanna fight no more
I just wanna know what you mean when you say you can't be with me
Cos this ain't feelin' right no more
You can't change what you say when the words leave your mouth
And i'm too high to breathe right now
I've been crying for the first time, it's been a f*cking while now
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air
Feeling like these walls keep closing in
I've been crying for the first time now, yeah yeah
Feeling like my lungs won't fill with air, feeling like these walls keep closing in
I've been crying for the first time
I know it's been a while now
I've been crying for the first time in a long time