Good Riddance Album Lyrics by Gracie Abrams

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Best

I was bored out my mind
Lost my whole appetite
When I could come to life, I didn't
You were there all the time
You're the worst of my crimes
You fell hard
I thought, good riddance

I never was the best to you
I never was the best to you
I never was
I never was

Used to lie to your face
Twenty times in a day
It was my little strange addiction
But you still tried to stay
While I'd self isolate
And I knew, but I stayed hidden

I never was the best to you
I never was the best to you
I never was
I never was
I never was the best to you
I never was the best to you
I never was
I never was

And I destroyed every silver lining you had in your head
All of your feelings, I played with them
Go ahead, we can just call it conditioning
We were too different
You were so sensitive
Gave me the best of that, I was so negligent
Now I feel terrible about how I handled it

And now I
Now I bet you resent all of me, all of it
Angry, blocking me over the internet
Promise, I don't forget all of my fault in this
'Cause look at me, I'm alone, sitting here, staying home
All of my self control kinda got difficult
But I deserve it though
I deserve it though

You were there, all the time
You're the worst of my crimes
You fell hard
I thought, good riddance

I never was the best to you
I never was the best to you
I never was
I never was
Oh, I never was the best to you
I never was the best to you
I never was
I never was

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I know it won't work

I left you here
Heard you keep the extra closet empty
In case this year
I come back and stay throughout my twenties
What if I won't?
How am I supposed to put that gently?
And down the road
You will love me until you resent me
Mm, mm, mm

I've had the thought
Tried to work it out through anxious pacing
What if I'm not
Worth the time and breath I know you're saving?
But it's a lot
All the shine of half a decade fading
The whole facade
Seemed to fall apart, it's complicated
Mm, mm, hmm-mm

And part of me wants to walk away 'til you really listen
I hate to look at your face and know that we're feeling different
'Cause part of me wants you back, but
I know it won't work like that, huh?
Why won't you try moving on for once? That might make it easy
I know we cut all the ties but you're never really leaving
And part of me wants you back, but
I know it won't work like that, huh?

I know it won't work like that

I'll open up
I'm thinking everything you wish I wasn't
The call was tough
But you're better off, I'm being honest
So won't you stop
Holding out for me when I don't want it?
Just brush me off
'Cause I'm your ghost right now, your house is haunted

And part of me wants to walk away 'til you really listen
I hate to look at your face and know that we're feeling different
'Cause part of me wants you back, but
I know it won't work like that, huh?
Why won't you try moving on for once? That might make it easy
I know we cut all the ties but you're never really leaving
And part of me wants you back, but
I know it won't work like that, huh?
(Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah) oh, oh

I know it won't work like that, huh?
(Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah) oh, oh, oh
I know it won't work like that, huh?

And part of me wants to walk away 'til you really listen
I hate to look at your face and know that we're feeling different
'Cause part of me wants you back, but
I know it won't work like that, huh?
Why won't you try moving on for once? That might make it easy
I know we cut all the ties but you're never really leaving
And part of me wants you back, but
I know it won't work like that, huh?

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Full machine

I'm a rollercoaster
You're a dead end street
But won't you stay for a while?
I wish that you'd never leave
I know I know better
You're no guarantee
But if you asked me to run away
I'd go easily

I almost lost it
I'll heal eventually
But faster if you're next to me
Next to me
I'm codependent
But trying hard not to be
I'm better when you're next to me

I'm a shameless caller
You're a full machine
But won't you answer tonight
And say something nice to me
And you don't have to mean it
You can lie to me
But if you asked me to run away
I'd go easily

I almost lost it
I'll heal eventually
But faster if you're next to me
Next to me
I'm codependent
But trying hard not to be
I'm better when you're next to me, next to me

But do you think we could talk?
'Cause I've been trying to tell you
How you're the one that I turn tom, mmm
But I should probably stop
Instead of forcing a breakthrough
It's just that I'll always choose you

I'm a forest fire
You're the kerosene
I had a life here before you
But now it's burning
I know I know better and
You're ignoring me
Still, if you asked me to run away
I'd go easily

I almost lost it
I'll heal eventually
But faster if you're next to me
Next to me
I'm codependent
But I'm trying hard not to be
I'm better when you're next to me, next to me

Do you think we could talk?
'Cause I've been trying to tell you
How you're the one that I turn to (turn to)
But I should probably stop
Instead of forcing a breakthrough
It's just that I'll always choose you

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Where do we go now?

24th Street
Where you held me, grabbed my arm
What a mental fire alarm
'Cause a lot of that felt wrong
Like I miss you
But when I kissed you back, I lied
You don't know how hard I tried
Had to fake the longest time

Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?

You look hopeful
Like we're supposed to work somehow
Can't you tell our light burned out?
Got a lot to cry about
There's nothin' left here
All our best years are behind
What a brutal way to die
But you choose it every time

So where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?

We could meet down the line
After all of the time
And give an actual try
I can't promise you'll like it
I know I changed overnight
So I can't blame you for fightin'
And I'd be losin' my mind
If you lived in your writin'
'Cause now I'm half of myself here without you
You're the best in my life and I lost you
And we had no control when it fell through
It was one-sided, hate how I hurt you
If I could, I'd have changed every feelin'
Reservations were up to the ceilin'
Guess the space was the thing that I needed
But I miss you

Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?
Where do we go now?

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I should hate you

Last night, I spiralled alone in the kitchen
Making pretend that the furniture listened
Wasn't the best of my mental conditions, but I tried
Thinkin' of you without any forgiveness
Because I was the one who would stay up and call you
And I'd drive to your house for the shit that you went through
And I wasted my breath when I tried to console you, didn't I?
'Cause we didn't happen the way we were supposed to

I know that I should hate you
I know that I should hate you

Pulled the knife off my bag, it was right where you left it
But your aim's kinda perfect, I'll give you the credit
I just drank something strong to try to forget, but it wasn't right
No, you're not even here, but you're doin' my head in

I know that I should hate you
I know that I should hate you
I know that I should hate you
Ooh, ooh

I should hate you, I feel stupid
Like I almost crashed my car
Drivin' home to talk about you
At my table in the dark
All I ever think about is
Where the hell you even are
And I swear to God I'd kill you
If I loved you less hard

After all of this time, I still get disappointed
Bet you're doing alright and you don't even know it
How it's all 'cause of you that my standards are broken in my mind
I would bend back to you if you left the door open

I know that I should hate you
I know that I should hate you
I know that I should hate you
Ooh, ooh
I know that I should hate you
I know that I should hate you
I know that I should hate you
Ooh, ooh

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Will you cry?

When you talk you get shallow
Where I walk you don't follow
When I scream you're my echo
Will you cry if I let go?

Damage
Lined up
Wreckage left behind us
How'd we get stuck?
Now I'm what you're bored of

Now you walk through me
With my heart heavy
Breaking my reverie
I could die early
With your arms 'round me
Habits go slowly
Would it not kill to say goodbye?

When you talk you get shallow
Where I walk you don't follow
When I scream you're my echo
Will you cry if I let go?

Pieces broken
All we left unspoken
Aimless hoping
Left my mouth wide open

It's kinda funny when it goes from all to nothing
You have to laugh before you start to cry
'Cause now I stop myself from holding onto something
That makes me feel a little less alive

When you talk you get shallow
Where I walk you don't follow
When I scream you're my echo
Will you cry if I let go?

You don't move me
I see through you
I don't follow
I don't want to
You don't move me
I see through you
I don't follow
I don't want to

You don't move me
I see through you
I don't follow
I don't want to
You don't move me
I see through you
I don't follow
I don't want to

Now you walk through me
With my heart heavy
Breaking my reverie
I could die early
With your arms 'round me
Habits go slowly
Would it not kill to say goodbye?

When you talk you get shallow
Where I walk you don't follow
When I scream you're my echo
Will you cry if I let go?
When you talk you get shallow
Where I walk you don't follow
When I scream you're my echo
Will you cry if I let go?

Will you cry if I let go?
Will you cry if I let go?
Will you cry if I let go?
Will you cry if I let go?

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Amelie

I met a girl once
She sort of ripped me open
She doesn't even know it
She doesn't know my name
We sat on the sofa
She asked me a million questions
I answered and by eleven
Memorized her face

Where did you go
Amelie, Amelie, Amelie?
Where'd you go?
Or were you all in a dream
Amelie, Amelie?
I don't know

Why'd it feel louder
When all of it went unspoken?
All I can do is hope that
This will go away
She had her hair up
She cried about her obsessions
But she doesn't know I'd let her
Ruin all my days

Where did you go
Amelie, Amelie, Amelie?
Where'd you go?
Or were you all in a dream
Amelie, Amelie?
I don't know
Where did you go
Amelie, Amelie, Amelie?
Where'd you go?
Or were you all in a dream
Amelie, Amelie?
Tell me no

Tell me more, I would give all my time
All your words felt like a nursery rhyme
Comfortable, handing you my whole life
When all your words felt like a funeral rite

So where did you go
Amelie, Amelie, Amelie?
Where'd you go?
Or were you all in a dream
Amelie, Amelie?
I don't know, oh
Where did you go
Amelie, Amelie, Amelie?
Where'd you go?
Or were you all in a dream
Amelie, Amelie?
I don't know

So where did you go
Amelie, Amelie, Amelie?
Where'd you go?
Or were you all in a dream
Amelie, Amelie?
I don't know, oh
Where did you go
Amelie, Amelie, Amelie?
Where'd you go?
Or were you all in a dream
Amelie, Amelie?
Tell me no

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Difficult

My double vision
Is only amplifying everything he isn't
'Til I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen
It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition

And I've been thinkin' if I move out this year
I'll feel my parents slipping
Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult

To name this feeling
Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving
But over what I never had, so I've been speaking
To my therapist, I call her every weekend

I meant to tell you
How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to?
Was it something that I said that colored you blue?

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Difficult (I)
Difficult

I've been drinking
And staying up too late reliving bad decisions
I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

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This is what the drugs are for

This is what the drugs are for
Turn the lights off on the come down
I still get emotional
When I think about your old house

Hopefully the high
Works to change my mind

Now I feel you in my room
Haven't seen you in a lifetime
What am I supposed to do
When you used to be my lifeline?

I've counted all the days
Since you walked away

Look, now I'm alone again
I've gotten used to sleeping here without you
Though I've tried I can't pretend
That I don't sit around and think about you
When all I ever do is think about you

In the middle of the night
I got caught inside a fever
Almost called a hundred times
Just to ask if you might leave her

She appears in dreams
Chasing after me

Look, now I'm alone again
I've gotten used to sleeping here without you
Though I've tried I can't pretend
That I don't sit around and think about you

Look how I just lost a friend
I'm burying your things inside my bedroom
All distractions in the end
Don't work, I'm left to sit and think about you
Like all I ever do is think about you

I'm still waiting by the phone
You painted my life indigo
A kind of blue I hate to know
Where everything turns kind of cold

Look, now I'm alone again
I've gotten used to sleeping here without you
Though I've tried I can't pretend
That I don't sit around and think about you

Look how I just lost a friend
I'm burying your things inside my bedroom
All distractions in the end
Don't work, I'm left to sit and think about you
Like all I ever do is think about you

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Fault line

You could go and I won't even feel it
Wouldn't hold up the road when you're leaving
You're a bad holiday
You're the drug that I take
When I want to forget how I'm feeling

I know you're a fault line
But I'll break too
Cracking at the same time
Does it shock you?
When I'm down
I fall right back to you, it happens
I know you're a fault line
But I'll break too
I'll break too

You could go and I bet I'd recover
Overnight, finish hurting each other
You feel light years away
If I met you today
I would run to the arms of another

I know you're a fault line
But I'll break too
Cracking at the same time
Does it shock you?
When I'm down
I fall back into you, it happens
I know you're a fault line
But I'll break too (mm, mm-hmm)
I'll break too

And all my imaginary friends are scared of you
I've gone and cried to them in our bedroom
Most nights I will pretend
I left this sooner

But I know you're a fault line
But I'll break too
Cracking at the same time
Does it shock you?
When I'm down
I fall back in to you, it happens
I know you're a fault line
But I'll break too
I'll break too
I'll break too
I'd break too

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The blue

You live in Hollywood
You're half an hour from me
Your reputation's good
I hope we've got a lot in common
I kinda think you should
Just drop it all and call me
You'd tell me on the phone
You really want to meet my family

What are you doing to me now?
What are you doing to me now?

You'd talk about your dad
He used to get so angry
He'd scare you and your brother
'Til you felt you needed saving
I know I'd let you in
On all my bad decisions
You'd make them feel less terrible
The second that you'd listen

What are you doing to me now?
What are you doing to me now?

You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted
You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted

I wonder if you know
If you can tell I'm losing
I'm going down without a fight
I don't know how you do it
You say we share a brain
Apologizing for it
But I take it as a compliment
You make me really nervous

What are you doing to me now?
What are you doing to me now?

You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted
You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted

What are you doing to me now?
What are you doing to me?
What are you doing to me now?
Mmm, mmm

Send me every song
That keeps you up from sleeping
I bet I could recite 'em all
I won't forget the feeling
Of staying up with you
Despite the space between us
I've never felt this close to someone
What if you're my weakness?

You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted
You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted

You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted
You came out of the blue like that
You came out of the blue like that
I never could've seen you coming
I think you're everything I've wanted

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Right now

Look at me, I feel homesick
Want my dog in the door
And the light in the kitchen
From the fridge, on the floor
And the faint overhearing
Of my mom on the phone
Through the walls of my bedroom
Things that I shouldn't know

Think the bus might be broken
'Cause the shocks never work
We're collectively hoping
That the drive will be short
People 24/7
It's the best and a curse
All they do is remind me
That I'm still introverted

I'm so high, but can't look down
Left my past life on the ground
Think I'm more alive somehow
I feel like myself right now

Pretty far from the ocean
Never thought that would hurt
Every lake here is frozen
Which is making it worse
This is somebody's hometown
Never been here before, mmm
Writing down every street sign
Missed the spelling, I'm sure

And I ended a friendship
On the day that I left
And though I really meant it
It still makes me upset
Am I losing my family
Every minute I'm gone?
What if my little brother
Thinks my leaving was wrong?

Oh, oh, I'm so high, but can't look down
Left my past life on the ground
Think I'm more alive somehow
I feel like myself right now

I'm so tired, but can't sit down
What if this is it for now?
Think I'm more alive somehow
I feel like myself right now
I feel like myself right now
I feel like myself right now
I feel like myself right now
Mmm