gayrat - it'll pass (feat. cuddlegoon) Lyrics

Only notice seasons passing when the clocks have changed
Maybe we can hash it out, I've got a lot to say
Nothing like a chokehold; pills in piles I grasp
With a drunken high and vocal fry to heal a violent past
Terrified of cars at speeds faster than the stars that bleed
Glowing like the mark that keeps its place as faded scar on cheek
Different from the ones I made, hidden as my arms in sleeves
"It'll pass", another day with limbs that look like cars were keyed
It'll pass, it'll pass, it'll pass
As your plane is passing over, in the dark I breathe
Nicotine or any little thing that sends me off to sleep
Pretend that everything that's messy's just an awful dream

I found it hard to breathe when I first saw you again
The notes that I had written on paper were now written on my skin
Your eyes looked like broken glass, reformed to perfect spheres
Once broken but repaired, I saw them whispering "I missed what I left here,"
I had capsized in retrospect
Swallowed whole by the unforgiving seas
You were a Jesus, walking on the water
I was sitting on the sea floor, wondering who that could be
I have fallen, faltered, I was flying through the sky like I was
Icarus, but my wax wings were melting long before I even began to take flight
My heart was on fire, I fought the flames with all my might
But when the flames extinguished by the waves crashing around me
I saw you there, coming to my rescue
Years passed by me in an instant
I saw you every day, either through passing or just by closing my eyes
I don't know how I was so blind, how I missed it, or why I didn't see it before
Why was I not something more
I drown myself by reliving the past
Nothing is holding me here, why can I not go back
I don't feel like the person I was anymore
Breathing feels so useless, I fade to black