bloodylovely Video (MV)

Sometimes feelings can be bloody
Others can be lovely
If you fall in, it might just get ugly
So grab a chair, lend an ear
Ask me how I ended up here.....
Drowning...
In thoughts so dark it could block out the sun
Like father, like son
It started out simple enough...
October 2006
When your heart stopped
Mine turned to poison
I wouldn't believe it, wouldn't listen to reason
Eyes spacey, sullen
Your death robbed me of child like wonder
Clear skies torn asunder
Replaced with a gloomy thunder
I had to let you go to save myself
So I turn my back on family who love me
Running...
Because they remind me of you
I'm selfish, it's true
How my outlook could be so blue
At least that's what I'm told by a few
Now I'm faced with what to do
Writing about how I'm feeling
Or the happiness your death is still stealing
From which I'm still reeling
But...
Sometimes feelings can be bloody
Others can be lovely
If you fall in, it might just get ugly
So grab a chair, lend an ear
Ask me how I ended up here.....
Trying....
To capture a bit of your essence
Feeling your presence
Healing...
I never processed the grief
So I write for relief
While I grit through my teeth
Hating myself for still dealing
With this goddamn hand I was dealt
It never mattered how I felt
Self placed burdens
Thinking I had to be the shoulder for others to weep
Tossing my problems behind
Building a mountain.....
A mountain that's grown far too steep
Now I have to take a reprieve
Dad, I think it's time I take my leave
Let you Rest In Peace
I hope you understand why I had to release
Because...
Sometimes feelings can be bloody
Others can be lovely
If you fall in, it might just get ugly
So grab a chair, lend an ear
Ask me how I ended up here.....
Beauty is ashes
Love is tears
What death is to memories
Time is to years
When the balance is due
There's always a shortage
It's like Fridays never coming
And neither is forty
And the Ghost of Saturday
Is the Ghost Of Arden too
My favorite sky is winter
And the best of love is blue
Sanity is migraine
The heart is broken glass
What silence is to closure
Time is to the past
If this life is bloody lovely
Excuse me, if I just can't be bubbly...