I'm gon' ruin my life tonight, this ecstasy hitting
I'm burning not winning, what's in my system should turn me a villain
Now track 9 ain't even worthy of listens
My burdens conviction, to be me in my world of conniptions and imma
Do some' irresponsible, because I'm like that
Healing is improbable the voices want the mic back
Want a nice bitch with a nice rack and a nice ass
But all the amenities will not ever get my time back
And so I pass it with the drinking and smoking, I'm hardly coping
Putting random shit together but the man within still broken
I know it but that won't stop me from hoping that I'll be golden
I'll pretend I don't know the next chapter my book is still open
Mama said I'll die young, I'm too busy getting wasted though
F*ck basic hoes and work hella hard stacking up my paper, dough
Looks like it's all going down, I was dying a few days ago
Maybe I'll put food on the table and even make the radio
I make bad decisions and money, it's kinda hilarious
I lost to addiction, I'm in Valhalla in a chariot
Reading the Oxford Dictionary's quite the experience
But now I can say that I'll do something so deleterious
F*ck octogenarians
I'm not gonna make it til then, my grave, I started burying
I don't wanna end up being some kind of librarian
When I could get faded and pretend like I'm a barbarian
But I ain't that bad, convinced myself I'm the worst guy
Maybe I should drop acid and try to open my third eye
This my third high in a day and it's only my first night
Sleeping by myself, I wake up with that blurred sight
Convince myself I'll be okay, you got a better idea?
I could get super into furniture, buy out an IKEA
Maybe I could find religion and it will all be clear
But I'm a sinner by nature, so I might die right here