Feel Like Dyin' Video (MV)

Momma grew a nigga strong enough, get it on my own
So I gotta go get it, f*ck it if it's right or wrong
But it's hurtin' me more that I got it, now you're gone
And ever since you left my house it don't feel like a home
Said that imma hold you down, show you how to ride
Been through hell and back so baby I can deal with fire
Downin' these bottles so baby I ain't copin' right
Hard to live so hit my phone if you ever feel like dyin'
Conversations with the devil I ain't feelin' right
Gotta nigga locked up he needs a better life
My momma ain't been the same since my bro died
Your own niggas be crazy don't leave the door wide
My dawg dealin' with demons gotta get so high
We been livin through our fears momma don't cry
When I tell you it hits different when a soul fly
Always stand on ya business, we gone be soul tied
I been through the ringer I hear death callin my name
Could give a f*ck about the money I just needed you to change
You expect me to open up but since then I ain't been the same
Got some feelings in my head that nigga I just can't explain
And I know it's been a minute
I ain't put my hands together
And I know you see me sinnin'
I fell behind you God I know that there's gon no winnin
Trynna keep my spirits lifted
I'm in debt to all my niggas
Aint afford my clothes in months
I got the same in all my pictures
Everybody trynna to tell me to go back to hell
Cause I started from the bottom baby and now I'm here
And you know that I used to wish that you were someone else
And baby sometimes I just wish I wasn't by myself
Conversations with the devil I ain't feelin' right
Gotta nigga locked up he needs a better life
My momma ain't been the same since my bro died
Your own niggas be crazy don't leave the door wide
My dawg dealin' with demons gotta get so high
We been livin through our fears momma don't cry
When I tell you it hits different when a soul fly
Always stand on ya business, we gone be soul tied
And when you told me you don't love me did you lie to me?
I feel like everything we went through was reality
And now I'm picking up the pieces of my sanity
Tell me that you still care so I can put my mind at ease
And it's been different since you left and now my bed is cold
PTSD I still get dreams about us growin' old
How you expect me to open up then throw it out the door
You ain't understand my feelings you was askin' for
And I been feelin' lonely its been hard for me to care
Different hoes in different places I know that they stare
But you the only one I need, I realize that ain't fair
I'll always be that nigga, I'm the one who hit it there
Yeah
Mm
Realize that ain't fair
But you the one I care 'bout
You the one I care
Mhmm
Mhmm
Mhmm