1998 Video (MV)

You can see what appears to be a strange dome of light
Pulsating on the horizon
Could it be the work of some alien intelligence?
Or a weird phenomenon of this planet?
Senseless to wonder now
As our oxygen supply is drained
Here I go again
Guess I'll never figure it out
I'm sick of the pouting
Rerouting
Second time this week
Found myself back at the pit
Revolver of sin
Overthinking just past the top of the brim
Life is so grim
I do it for the next of my kin
Who they in-doctrine in
Cause we were born to sin
In this world of sin
There's world within
I'll let you the know
The Indigo is moving so slow
Oh-no just subliminal smooth criminal
Bet you didn't know who's pot to piss in
The plot is missing
We don't know just play the victim
Nah I'd rather play the system
Before nigga end in prison
But it's conditioned
If you ain't positioned and politician you just wishing
Gimme that
No freedom of speech I need it back
I needed that
So I resort to the raps
The booms and the baps
Cause this is where the truth be at
F*ck
Dilapidated in my veins feeling like bane
So I had to make my way down memory lane
I'm not the same
Rode down 27th to remember the days
When I felt like Mr. Wayne all alone in his cave
My grandma say
Why you keeping so much space between us?
It ain't really mean nothing
Just another nigga fronting
Til I had a wake up call
Felt like death was coming
Had to drop that ball
I called grandma
Missed my ma and wrote to pops
Had to tell em I how feel before I start drifting off
A nigga was lost
Can't be found
Don't come around
This sorrow town
Is killing me
But filling me up with negativity
F*ck
No I am who I intend to be
Methamphetamine?
No I'll never need
Just a little g
Roll a little tree
A little synergy yea that's all I need
I've been going ghost so long it's like nobody sees me
Speak my mind freely
I streamline easily
Living like I'm dreaming
Ever since I woke up
Man this shit is so tough
Nobody wanna discuss
How we feel where the trust
They giving it up for lust and greed
Confusing wants and needs
My soul it bleeds
Please hear me
For I can't see
The light within the dark
How do I keep following my heart when it is broken?
I start choking when I lose focus
Breathing so hopeless
Alone and in the dark that's when we're really the closest
Am I sinking and soaking?
Instead of staying afloat
And staying sincere in my motions
Emotions scattered like roaches
Won't mix the pills and the potions
I'm not entirely hopeless
Just trying to keep my eyes open
All three
But it gets harder to see
And I'm not talking about the distance
Man I hate reminiscing