Hourglass - 38th Floor Lyrics

Here I am again on the 38th floor.
The view is good, but my mind is out the door.

Staring at a screen all day,
there's no further I can sink.
Can't help but think
I've somehow flushed my life away...

Every day the same,
every meeting a corporate game.
I wouldn't be surprised
if my boss doesn't know my name.

I don't know myself,
I can't stand who I've become.
Coerced by fear,
pressure and strain forced my career.

Get me out of here
Take me to a place where I can see
something different than what's in front of me.
Silence my fear
that I'm not where I should be,
that the door that was closed...
it was closed by me.

If only I had another chance
to go back to the point
where I was scared to take the risk -
so I abandoned what I love.

If only I had another shot
to go back where my soul was bought
and sold by a poor decision,
my "now" wouldn't need revision.

And every day I get so bored,
nothing seems to change.
The doubt about the choice I made
rings like thunder in the rain.

I'm just a grain of sand
on an endless beach,
another face in the crowd.
I could have held the playing hand
that took me out of the mundane's reach
and walked the path my dreams allowed.

Instead I've got another meeting,
gotta keep the company strong.
The boss has asked for overtime,
he'll make sure the day drags on.

What have I done?
Where have I gone?
Everything and everywhere I knew was wrong.
What have I seen?
Where are my dreams?
Nothing and nowhere but a computer screen.

Here I am again on the 38th floor.
The view is good as I'm walking out the door.

One choice that cost so much,
made life unrecognizable.
But I have another chance
to make my goal realizable.

I can't undo what's been done,
but I have to try to fix what's wrong.

To let my dreams be my guide
They now refuse to be denied.
I may not find the way back out
of the mess I've made,
but I'm about to swallow pride,
'cause I'm walking out.
The time is now to change my life...