Han - Teenage Cancer Lyrics

Maybe
All that I am is a facade
A stunted little child in the dark
Approximating living through pretending
Never tell truths, I always bend it
But at the very least, I have to end this now
Oh, yeah
I travel so far just to find somebody
Anyone who gives a damn about me
Though everyone would be just fine without me
High school is such a bore
'Cause my word don't mean a thing no more
Maybe I can't change, but I knew for sure
Couldn't stand to see you walk out that door
So don't you dare believe a word I say
I do it all to make you stay
So I pretend I'm gonna die
Just to see who cares at
All the worst lies that I ever told
You know I did it all just to bring you closer
Teenage me never knew how to cope
But now my life is over, everybody knows
That I lied about the cancer
I made up my own answers
To the problem of being a burden
My solution wasn't worth it
Oh, such a good way to pity me
When you're tricked into giving your sympathy
Attention seeking ain't a sin to me
If I died right now, no one's missing me, and I
Can't see beyond the pain
Just want someone to validate
The way I feel, I say it's real
Even if it's made up, I don't wanna deal, so
Don't you dare believe a word I say
I do it all to make you stay
So I pretend I'm gonna die
Just to see who cares at all
No, no, no, no, no
So I become a living lie
Say it, and I start to fall
Young and dumb, that's me
You can't go back if you burn the bridge
Popular is all I wanna be
You understand that they won't forgive
I was scared and all alone
Deep down, you must know that you're to blame
And I just want someone to hold
You know that don't make it okay
So don't you dare believe a word we say
We do it all to make you stay
So I pretend I'm gonna die
Just to see who cares at all
No, no, no, no, no
So I become a living lie
Say it, and I start to fall
And only now do I see
Maybe the cancer is me