Heshua - Waiting Lyrics

Waiting for a sign
That id get out of this alive
Waste all this time
Wishin I'd rather just die
Fall on my face
And forget you were mine
I try to holler or cry
But now i'm hollow inside
Fed up with the feelings
You only cared for physical appearance
I don't even know what the hell your deal is
Even started this shit with my parents
Bearing, tearing, blaming and swearing
When you're with me is like you're embarrassed
Its payday too and i'm the dallas
Shoutout Aly you the realist
Illest, chillest person that i know
I even got help from the Patron
Bring the gun hoe and the joke's on
I've been lost too for so long
Walking this road all alone
Ain't no one buzzin on my phone
Looking at your eyes of rhinestone
That's what I once called my home
But enough of the talking and sulking
I better man up and just walk it
I've had enough of this dead man thats walking
Pick the gun up and just cock it
I could but the barrel to my marrow
Its the easy way out just to exit
Spitting these rhymes like my blood flow
Rather pick the mic back up and just rap it
This my medium to deal with
This life i'm given to deal with
Aint shooting myself like a dimwit
Aint cutting myself like a nitwit
Im the pilot in the cockpit
I control my own life outfit
I didnt come all this way just to quit
Bring your own baggage along bitch
Waiting for a sign
That id get out of this alive
Waste all this time
Wishin I'd rather just die
Fall on my face
And forget you were mine
I try to holler or cry
But now i'm hollow inside
Waited for the sign
The sign of the times
Loved you so much that id walk the line
Call it a sin but to me you're divine
Gave you my truth and you fed me with lies
The otp, both like tonic and lime
Cure for my heart but toxic in mind
Hard to believe but you got me so blind
Whyd you leave me to die
Whyd you leave me to die
Waiting for a sign
That id get out of this alive
Waste all this time
Wishin I'd rather just die
Fall on my face
And forget you were mine
I try to holler or cry
But now i'm hollow inside