Never Realized Video (MV)

Posted up at the corner in my Sailor Moon tee
Never knowing nothing, blind to beauty I cannot see
I been needing your attention, actually, I just been stressing
All my plans never realized, bumping Runner's High!
High stress, that's what I'm feeling
No wonder I can't feel shit
It's always life is a bitch
Instead, let me climb out of this
Emotional rut cause I've just had enough
Self hatred and being out for blood
What's this all for when I already feel like a fail?
It's like going out to see without a sail, to no avail
Swear that's how it feel
Change is coming, swear I can feel something
But perhaps I'm just bluffing to myself and it's really nothing
So instead, I'm sitting here thinking about what could be
But I'm blind to all beauty, so for now I gotta make believe!

Plotting and thinking but nothing ever happens
Trying and trying but I ain't ever happy
Plans going nowhere, living like it's do or die
Always lacking something, I'm never realized! (Never realized!)
Never realized! (Never realized!)
Never realized! (Never realized!)
Never realized! My dreams are never realized!

Lost in dreams, I can't seem to figure out who I am?
Metaphors and what they mean: unsolved and no plan!
It's all gone or feels wrong, being where I stand
Never realized my lies or no one understands
I am my own self! Sometimes I need help!
But I can't bring myself to ask, instead I sit and feel like trash
But what I fail to always see is everyone around me
Offering help, with whatever I may have dealt
Tunnel vision's got me suffering
I can't see outside of my view, I'm struggling!
Life's but a ball I'm always fumbling!
Tunneling to the surface of my problems
Hoping to reach it sometime soon and somehow solve them
Wholeheartedly not expecting any sort of success
Yet, despite my issues, I can be considered totally blessed!