Homemade Ocean - Drown Lyrics

It's me it's not you no matter what they say
You're too pretty to have the blame
That's just how I subconsciously justify it in my brain
I'm ugly, I'm unloved by you and everyone else
Everyone else has friends and things they like about the world
I had you but now I don't
So what am I left with just a lot of doubt
I hate myself for the way I treated you
I chalk it up to being a good boyfriend
But I know I was imperfect maybe even manipulative
So what am I gonna do kill myself
I know that doesn't solve anything so I should try something else
But everything else just feels like a wall I can't climb
So at this point I guess I could sing or start to rhyme
Cause then you'll pay less attention to the words
That I'm dying to get out cause all of this is just a cry for help
I thought I was getting my life right
Moving in the direction that is universally agreed to be up so why do I feel down
Even now asking that I know its cause I don't have you anymore
But maybe I should blame this depression thing
Cause that's safer than coming off like a stalker
Cause I swear I follow like a sleep walker
Cause you're in every dream and I wish that was an exaggeration but it's not
I'm being dramatic when I say I'll be alone forever
But right now I feel that alone forever is far better than being with anyone
Better than being with anyone not named you
So I'm gonna drown
I'm gonna drown
Just let the air go right out
I'm gonna drown
Drown