I Think I Wanna Die Video (MV)

I'm sick of everybody taking advantage of me
Like I'm a stepping stool for everybody to stand on to see
I need someone to save me and I think I'm needing it quick
I'm lower than I think I've ever been and I'm strugglin' with it
I think I wanna die right now
But I can't decide for myself
Don't know if I'm alive right now
I been fearing for my health
Been told to take my time somehow
But always compared to everyone else
Almost 25 somehow
Wasted so much time and watched it melt
You ever prayed for your own death
You ever prayed that you'd never take another step
Out that front door
You ever prayed that your brains on the floor
You ever prayed, that you'd never live another day
In this f*cked life
Cause I do almost every f*cking night
And it's killing me, it's killing me
Did so many drugs, feel like Hillary
Got so many mother f*cking pills in me
Ohh silly me
But that's my destiny
Ain't glorifying drugs, just organizing what I got left of me
Heaven really been testing me
I don't even know if its heaven I believe
But when I was at the bottom of this pill bottle
Somebody was there ready catching me
Depression stressing me, it mess with me
Especially, when I see, all my homies 6 feet deep
If they ain't gone yet, the rest of them dead to me
Pain still fresh to me, but essentially
Use it to my advantage when anybody pressing me
Wear my heart on my sleeve
But now its Lucy that been dressing me
The harder I try, the more I feel that she get obsessed with me
I think I wanna die right now
But I can't decide for myself
Don't know if I'm alive right now
I been fearing for my health
Been told to take my time somehow
But always compared to everyone else
Almost 25 somehow
Wasted so much time and watched it melt
I'm sick of everybody taking advantage of me
Like I'm a stepping stool for everybody to stand on to see
I need someone to save me and I think I'm needing it quick
I'm lower than I think I've ever been and I'm strugglin' with it
I think I wanna die right now
But I can't decide for myself
Don't know if I'm alive right now
I been fearing for my health
Been told to take my time somehow
But always compared to everyone else
Almost 25 somehow
Wasted so much time and watched it melt