Ibz - Battles Lyrics

I feel so close but
Still so far I
Feel like i have to cover all of my scars. This
Lonely road i've
Travelled on my own
I've got to keep my heart
I should've known this from the start
Certain days i ask is it worth it
Like do i really wanna grind and do i see a purpose
All they really want is clout and i had to learn it
I had to firm it, them bridges man i had to burn it
And i ain't perfect
The world keeps turning, keeps spinning
Time wait for no man i clocked, keep it ticking
I pray in the night for all the days that i be sinning
Its like every time i focus the women come in triplets
Im conflicted
Cos while i pray for forgiveness i still make a living off this singing
I'm tryna make a difference with these lyrics that i've written
I'm tryna show these boys we ain't cut from the same linen nah
Big difference
My brodie told me call my mum and tell her that i love her cos my chance could go missing
Same week he lost out and now he's left wishing
No amount of tears can ever change whats been written
Yea
I wish that i could fast forward to days that we'd only stay winning
You're gonna make her proud
I aint kidding, i aint tripping
We ain't resting until the jobs finished
Look
I was scared of getting punched in my face
Until it happened, shit changed then i carried a blade
You know, Just to feel safe if they tried me again
And since then mentally i grew a couple of ways its like
I had to shape my destiny
And now i'm sitting in the barbers and they're asking whats next next for me
And truthfully i did let my pride get the best of me
Just to steer clear of the expectancies
I have dreams of doing music
It's all fun and games until you really prove it
The vision they ain't Bayern like Munich
I know its cliche and i ain't stupid
In the way the doubt is kinda therapeutic
I feel so close but
Still so far I
Feel like i have to cover all of my scars. This
Lonely road i've
Travelled on my own
I've got to keep my heart
I should've known this from the start