4 AM Phenomena Video (MV)

I feel like I was broken at a young age
The pain changed but never fully went away
Most days it's a dull ache
But it flares up when the skyline's gray
Stuck in a cage with no chance to escape
When it takes all my energy just
To keep the demons at bay
Stuck in a cage with no chance to escape
Who or what can take me from today?
I don't understand the way I feel
Walking around with wounds that might never ever heal
I blend into the crowd, keeping me concealed
But upon close examination the truth will be revealed
I'm different... than all these other humans
They look so sure of their each and every movement
While I have no idea, what the hell I'm doing
So I'm stuck, living in these ruins
I work so hard but I see no improvement
Oh, I'm sick of dreaming
I want a world I can believe in
Not one that I wanna be leaving
4 AM and instead of sleeping
I'm at my demon's nightly meeting...
By the toilet coughing, heaving
The only meal I've had all weekend
Can't run from what I'm fleeing
I feel like I was broken at a young age
The pain changed but never fully went away
Most days it's a dull ache
But it flares up when the skyline's gray
Stuck in a cage with no chance to escape
When it takes all my energy just
To keep the demons at bay"
Stuck in a cage with no chance to escape
How long will it be before I completely break?
Yo, I wake up every day
It always feels the same
The sky's the blandest shade of gray
Outside this window frame
I brought my inner child out to play
But couldn't handle the high stakes game
Fell victim to decay
Look what it became
There are things in disarray, all inside my brain
So I guess that you could say
That I'm crazy or insane
So what is on display
Is my very raw pain
Someone take me away
I can't handle the strain
Oh, I'm sick of dreaming
I want a world I can believe in
Not one that I wanna be leaving
4 AM and instead of sleeping
I'm at my demon's nightly meeting...
By the toilet coughing, heaving
The only meal I've had all weekend
Can't run from what I'm fleeing
No, I don't know
What to do or where to go
I've trudged through mud, sleet and snow
So my footsteps have been slow
Oh, I can't see
How I will ever be set free
Long ago life shackled me
I tried so hard but can't find the key
I'm at the end of my rope
And in the dark side of tunnels
I've lost all hope
While walking through the jungle
Unsteadily I woke to a disturbing rumble
Something inside broke
I felt it shatter and crumble
Swallowed pride makes me choke
I stutter, I mumble
I try to explain how it feels inside; ugly and hollow
I've tried to find what's missing in the
Bottom of bottles
And I've been face to face with all
The problems that followed
Oh, I'm sick of dreaming
I want a world I can believe in
Not one that I wanna be leaving
4 AM and instead of sleeping
I'm at my demon's nightly meeting...
By the toilet coughing, heaving
The only meal I've had all weekend
Can't run from what I'm fleeing