Illsamar - Figure Out (feat. Marcus Lee) Lyrics

Let me breathe now
Never understood but I'm here now
Got a second try gotta figure out
I ain't letting up I will make it out

Future looking hazy teeter totter on the fence
I've been overthinking and my mind is on defense
Life is complicated but one thing I am convinced
There's something out there for me cause I'm never giving in
I work hard
But I work smart
Back in grade school I was book smart
Gave it all up for a quick start
Said I'd go back I couldn't part
Ways with the way I was living
Money on mind I was driven
Bought an o z I was smitten
Didn't take long I was slipping
Got my first job at 15
Had a little money
Not a lot of dreams
Momma always said stay away from the fiends
Didn't take long I would burst at the seams
Worst than the fiends
Never chasing a dream
Only 18
Things that I seen
I was in disbelief
I could never be free
Give me pills
Give me weed
Give me amphetamines
Oxy was my oxygen
Fighting with my pops again
Snorting smoking hydrogen
Arrested spent the night again
Locked up in a cell again
Demons I'm in hell again
Glad I found a friend again
Whoda known where I'd a been

Let me breathe now
Never understood but I'm here now
Got a second try gotta figure out
I ain't letting up I will make it out
Let me breathe now
People in my corner wanna see now
Where we going next we gonna figure out
Nothing to complex we gonna make it out

I just moved back into my house, couple days ago
Spent a night in jail, thinking 'how the hell my days' this low?'
Bouta be pushing 31, man this ain't it, bro
I go back to the mirror, like my nigga why you caged in though
And I do it to myself man
Spent a long time losing
I ain't tryna get into it
Been abusing myself man
Standing in front of judge
With my head down
Excusing myself man
Like I'm losing myself ma'am
But I'm just another number to her
Deluding myself into thinking/
If keep on drinking that I will forget it at all
All the while staying still
If I keep it real, then I have been ready to fall
Waiting waiting waiting waiting
If I stay sedated
I cannot be great
No, I can't be the greatest
I cannot survive
If stay in hiatus
Because I'm not breathing
My man's, I'm deflated
I'm late again
Late registration I'm playing coy
Plagued with frustration to stay in joy
Not in my career so I ain't employed
She done with excuses 'like save it, boy'
I'm done with excuses, myself
Tryna focus on just moving myself
For too long, I been stagnant
Even moving backwards
Only way to win is to lose to self

Let me breathe now
Never understood but I'm here now
Got a second try gotta figure out
I ain't letting up I will make it out
Let me breathe now
People in my corner wanna see now
Where we going next we gonna figure out
Nothing to complex we gonna make it out

I got distractions more than actions
And every time I take a step
I'm taking fifty backwards
And I'm just trying to find my pep
And some greener pastures
I do some things I do regret it's time I gotta factor
I gotta get out on the road
I'm reaching 29 and the times are getting old
I never told soul I kept on the low
I guess I'm insecure but now I'm vulnerable
I'm just trying to see globe
I've been leaning on my hope
I've been praying to the Most
I've been doubting that's fosho
Gotta get it for my folks
Raise your glasses for a toast
When we winning in God we boast
We didn't do this on our own
No
And please continue underestimating
And I'll continue working while I'm working on my patience
The journey long I've been to hell and back I can take it
Success ain't measured it's what you make it just don't be complacent

Let me breathe now
Never understood but I'm here now
Got a second try gotta figure out
I ain't letting up I will make it out
Let me breathe now
People in my corner wanna see now
Where we going next we gonna figure out
Nothing to complex we gonna make it out