Interpersonal - Untimely Me Lyrics

I can't let myself think straight
Everything is cloudy
When will this all go away
My thoughts are left astray

I fell down to the floor
Hoping for no more

Please don't leave me be
I can't hardly breathe
It's taking a toll on me
I can't wait for this to leave
It's got me heaving on my knees

Pretending that I'm fine
So you can't see
All this misery
All this untimely me

And I've been thinking
That I've been sinking
For so long
That it seems it's not enough
So tell me what's enough

Get outside
To clear my mind
Clouds are blue
But not in my eyes
Optimism, yeah I've tried
I can feel the nerves dripping down my spine

Pretending that I'm fine
So you can't see
All this misery
All this untimely me

I've had it up here
I'm battling myself
I hope one day I win
For the sake of my own health
Please just let this go away
I'm counting down my final days

I can't believe it
But I know I'm right
That in the end
All good things subside
And all that I care about
Truly means nothing

Might as well just die tonight
Forget the things that I hold inside
Let go of everything
Float away and fly