Lost Myself Video (MV)

Lost my heart, then I lost myself
I'm screaming out, bitch I need some help
I'm doing things that are bad for my health
I'm scared as hell, bitch I scare myself
I'm so empty, just a shell
I'm so fragile, what the hell
When I'm just about to move on, I get brought back by a smell
Can't move on I'm stuck in the past
Time moves quick yeah time moves fast
I'll never get back what I thought I had
That's my fault yeah that's my bad
Tripping over everything, I'm always f*cking sad
She's moving on to better things, I guess I'm f*cking glad
I finally understand that I'm a piece of f*cking trash
I'm driving too fast, baby pray I don't crash
Hate myself more than anything
Wish I knew how to handle pain
But I don't think, I just act
That's how it all ended up like that
Living my life in darkness
Lately I been feeling kinda heartless
Lately I been thinking that my crazy ex baby probably don't care
That I feel just like a carcass
Gotta move on regardless
Know that I'm trying my hardest
No matter what I go through, I'll always f*cking show you
That I'ma make it as a f*cking artist
Putting my thoughts into music
Always gonna try to make a new hit
Remember making songs with Newman
Back when I felt like a human
My dumb little mind
Distorted the time
And I can't realign
With a path that's divine
I'm crossing the line
Where my heart intertwines
With demons and angels, got chills down my spine
Fell down the rabbit, I can't escape
Consumed by the darkness, consumed by the hate
Engulfed in the flames of my ongoing pain
Ever since you left, I ain't been the same
In the middle of the night, the devil started creeping
Put his hands around my neck while I was still sleeping
Swear to you that that was real, I know I wasn't dreaming
Sometimes I feel like I'm controlled by a demon
Wait, wait, focus
Possessed when I wrote this
Now the horned beast telling me I chose this
Didn't chose anything, this is straight bogus