Little Known Video (MV)

Does my equanimity inconvenience you
You don't know what it took
To get here hold on,
Was the prelude too intrusive
Let me subdue, that's not me
I'm always serene, altruistic, and quiet
I descry everything
I spare to be silent

I know how barbarically I can
Lacerate someone with my locution, intensely
So I designate not to
Without surcease
I abdicate from everything for
That account

Don't misconstrue how much omnipotence I Can hold, Does that petrify you
Should I extricate it
You misreckoned with what
I'm competent of
Wait no, too invasive let's reiterate
I just want to
Tell my story

Nobody can assimilate the disarray
I went through to achieve this
Ataraxia to be, I rather be
Languish and keep a tight
Rein on me, I know
It would agonize them more
Than me if I did
My character should tell
You more about me then them

Constant attempts for a rejoinder
Your actions are impractical to me
Does my quietude put you in
Distress, nobody was there to
Pick up the pieces, I deciphered
It by myself, unfailingly

All the disconcerted nights
Not my body but my mind
All the tears that whistled through
My shirts and my blankets
The wars I grappled
When I envisioned an alliance

I fought on my own
No matter what was at
The fore, so harmonious but
Don't forget the extreme
The hell I survived that
Made me this gentle
My self control isn't my weakness

You miscalculated what I had to
Conform with, you appraise me
My poker face, don't be
Confounded to it, I promise
You don't want to see
My soul encountered more
Than what you could
Ever conceptualize

I'm sedated through the crucible moments
You can't displace me I efface
My own tears, lost In
My own world in petto
Then go back into permanence
Where I should be
Don't let my idyllic manner
Fool you, in my sector
Of Xanadu, my intellection to you
Can you see