Ixora - All In The Lies Lyrics

I open my heart to this curse, believe it and feel even worse
Im over the dramatics and the stats they leave me in the ground come first
I apologise for all that I am segregate my mind from my hands
Cause one is on the throttle and I'm accountable for all of the dread

It's all in my lies, I am plagued by the lies
Always filled with lies - tellin' myself these lies

Stay up, f*ck up, disregard yourself
Own up, forever messed up, from something worse
It's clockwork baby I try to blame me, and live on a broken limb
It's clockwork baby, I try to blame me. It hurts me much more in the end

My body is in protest, mindset in distress

It's all in my lies, I tell myself these lies
And I'm accountable for lies, over again for lies

Steady in the moment, present but I'm holding out, how?
Ready and I'll own it, scared but I'll know why

Its all in my lies, So consumed by my lies
Preying that I will find, a solitude self defined