IZeke - Vanished Lyrics

I've gone insane, out my brain, can't explain it
Numb to this pain, plain as Jain, I can't stand it
Gassed up, butane, in my lane, I've been damaged
I wish you vanished, I wish you vanished

You try to take control when I wake up
You tell me that I'm stuck so live my life for the pay stubs
Then I hit the road, make my heart feel like eight tons
You drive me up the wall and I'm losing my patience
But I ain't gon say nothin
The more on my plate, the more that I eat, the more that you know, I start losing hope
I hate getting older, didn't know you before
At least pay rent for my mind if you calling it home
Uh
Some days are better than others
But I won't live my life scared hiding under the covers
You make my life a living hell and my mind is what suffers
I don't know what's going on, but I hope I recover
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Heart beating out my chest, while I write this song
So I gotta tell these people. try to right my wrongs
You just wanna be a secret, let my life go on
But I won't let you live inside where you don't belong

I've gone insane, out my brain, can't explain it
Numb to this pain, plain as Jain, I can't stand it
Gassed up, butane, in my lane, I've been damaged
I wish you vanished, I wish you vanished

I worry all the time and it's getting to me
I don't wanna be this way, I can't do the pick and choosing
Half the time it's stupid and I don't know why I do it
But you putting thoughts inside I know are lies but it's confusing
You tell me that I'm never good enough and my girl gonna leave
She found a man that's got money, better looking, can't compete
But I've seen it in her eyes, in her heart the way it beats
Tells me I'm the one for her, no need to worry just believe
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But it's harder than that, you know I'm living in the future cuz the present's my past
What if I fail as a husband or I suck as a dad
Man I would hate to let you down and it's making me sad
I think I've almost hit my wall, what a battles it's been
But you've been burning all the bridges that are saving my skin
And you've been here through it all, creating thick from the thin
So here's my life, I'm done playing games, take home the win

So you're really gonna give up? Just abandon it all
And leave the people that you love stuck outside of your walls
Cuz you refused to ask for help when you started to fall
You've even given up on God by rejecting His calls
I'm saying never let another human being feel alone
You are beautiful and loved, you can call me on my phone
If you ever need to talk, I will make the love known
Your life is worth living don't make today written in stone

I've gone insane, out my brain, can't explain it
Numb to this pain, plain as Jain, I can't stand it
Gassed up, butane, in my lane, I've been damaged
I wish you vanished, I wish you vanished