Anxiety Video (MV)

I got my finger on the trigger of a pistol
Sometimes I wish that my life was more simple
Standing so tall yet I'm feelin so crippled
Livin on the edge like should I jump out the window

And it should never be a mystery, why when I'm looking at my history
All I see is pain and Misery, all the rain when it was slippery
I'm livin too fast yeah I might catch an injury

Life is like a war and I'm fightin for the infantry
I paint a picture with my words like literary imagery
Losin all my faith, I think it's time to Call the chivalry
And when the night falls I let the dark take my dignity

I barely feel alive, feel like I wanna die
Momma telling me to strive that I shouldn't waste My time
Mom I can't explain it, it's too hard with all this pain
And l don't know where I am Goin or Why I feel so ashamed

Baby don't cry, your life will get better
I'm Askin god why I'm still cold in this sweater
Society's the reason that I'm feelin so mad
Anxiety's the reason that I'm feelin so sad

I got my finger on the trigger of a pistol
Sometimes I wish that my life was more simple
Standing so tall yet I'm feelin so crippled
Livin on the edge like should I jump out the window

And it should never be a mystery, why when I'm looking at my history
All I see is pain and Misery, all the rain when it was slippery
I'm livin too fast yeah I might catch an injury

Sometimes commitin suicide is like the only option
But I advise that before you go proceed With caution
Your life is not an auction, you gotta understand
There ain't a price that's Enough to take yourself from your fam

And all these money situations, problematic litigations, different obligations
I can't take it Anymore, so I guess it's time for my personal
Elimination

As I'm stuck inside this cell, and I'm livin in this hell
Every time that I have yelled
Ain't Nobody wanna help, ain't nobody wanna help

Baby don't cry, your life will get better
I'm Askin god why I'm still cold in this sweater
Society's the reason that I'm feelin so mad
Anxiety's the reason that I'm feelin so sad

I just wanna cry, why do I feel so alone
I don't wanna die, but I'm losin all control
I feel like I'm trapped, as I don't know where to go, If I do collapse lord take away my soul

Take me from this hardship and help me find my home
Take away this darkness it's all I've ever know
I feel so lost I feel so misunderstood, pistol to my dome as I question if I should