Jackson Lair - My Own Disaster Lyrics

Searching through an empty catacomb
For things only found inside a home
Hollow Like the high I'm chasing
Followed By my doubts, I'll shake them
Life's on repeat, why do they envy me
I'm burdened by the need to be better
Than all the people I hear on repeat

Doin my best to make choices
When it all seems f*cking pointless
But I can't turn away
Cuz I can feel his blood on my hands
Can I be that man
Will the world turn to stone, leave me there all alone
Will I be that man today
I'm tired of who I am So deal the second hand
Tell me which part I'm supposed to play

I changed, so what, didn't like who I was
Never at peace with my own disaster
He called my bluff, told me I was enough
That I was designed to go climb that ladder
Sometimes life's gonna beat you down
And kick you when you're on the ground
But I know today that the
Call of the grave is the
Devil just running his mouth