Soon I'll Be Fine (Old Endings) Video (MV)

My dads gone now, my souls changed
I just can't let go of it now, of all the pain
The tears come down, they come like rain
I wish I could numb it all down, with some novocaine
Over again now, and over again
My mind is so locked and trapped now, I know it's a shame
Thoughts of him passing now, show in my brain
Wish I had more time to go over some things
Here we go again, flow again life don't give a f*ck, no one's safe
Here then you gone in a moment, good man dead no atonement
Memories, memories gotta hold on to 'em close never loan it
Wish I called more on the phone and, things never said didn't show it, yea
These feelings got me feeling so beside
Myself I wish I could postpone time
The pain just hits I'm so unfocused I
Feel like I'm becoming a different guy

These feelings gotta run 'em out, yea
I've been through it let the sun come out, yea
Let the darkness pass I'm done I'm out, yea
New beginnings let the fun come out yea so I'm telling you why
Yea, man I'm telling you why
Time to get mine yea I'm telling you why
Leave it all behind yea I'm telling you why
Old endings endings end in time soon I'm just gon' be fine

My moms gone now, dementia came
I feel so beside myself like, like I've gone insane
Everytime we speak now, I feel the pain
This disease took her now she can't, can't, be the same
Disease took her mind, I can't be the same
I'm so down and so heart broken, I can't explain
Look into her eyes now, I feel ashamed
'Cause I can't fix it man life ain't the same, yea
Here we go again, lights go again
This shit don't make no sense (No sense)
Life's playing sick jokes I'm tense (I'm tense)
Life don't give a f*ck I'm spent (I'm spent)
I need a break, a moment
To get my thoughts in focus
Can't even write i'm so pissed
Lost a piece of me I'm hopeless
These feelings got me feeling so beside
Myself I wish I could postpone time
The pain just hits I'm so unfocused I
Feel like I'm becoming a different guy

These feelings gotta run 'em out, yea
I've been through it let the sun come out, yea
Let the darkness pass I'm done I'm out, yea
New beginnings let the fun come out yea so I'm telling you why
Yea, man I'm telling you why
Time to get mine yea I'm telling you why
Leave it all behind yea I'm telling you why
Old endings endings end in time soon I'm just gon' be fine

Change gon' come one day yea yea and i'ma find my way
I fell off of life's mountain yea, it f*cked up my whole day
Change gon' come one day yea yea and i'ma feel okay
Old endings end sometime sunshine is right around the way
I miss you pops, miss you bad yea
When I think about, I get sad yea
Gotta figure out where my heads at
You'd wanna see me prosper, (Yea)
I miss you ma, miss you bad yea
When I think about, so sad yea
Gotta wiggle out of this dredge yea
You'd wanna see your baby boy shine too
But right now I'm feeling shine proof
Burying a parent defines you
The pain you can feel it like a fine tooth
A punch in the gut, man times two
Watching you're other parent wither away
It's just as bad, similarly
I can't fix it if I wish it away
Feeling so bad In the middle of May
I sit and I wait, thinking of fate
I know they both wouldn't want me to to just waste
Opportunities cause I'm feeling a way
Get ya head straight gwon head and be great
Get ya head straight gwon head and be great
Get ya head straight gwon head and be great
Get ya head straight gwon head and be great
So Ima be great, Ima be okay