Jacqui Fauni - Placeholder Lyrics

I was always down for you
The Bonnie to your Clyde
You told me not to wait around for you
Had to know I'd never leave you to die

You had me hooked on all the back and forth, the push and pull
The will-he-won't-he-be-there-for-me
All it took to hold my breath
The smallest sign that you might care for me

It was almost like a game
How long could I make it without breathin'
How many times would I let you come and go
Scrapin' wounds that were healin'

Was I really just a placeholder
'Til you found the one you were waitin' for
And now I'm left to wonder, honey
Have you told her
All the secrets you would tell me
All the sweet nothin's I wished you would
Now I'm older
It's my time to own somethin' I've always known
I'm not a placeholder
Placeholder...

Yeah, I was always down for you
I was your Harley Quinn, ride or die
I buried bodies in the ground for you
Left me twisted in the dirt too many times

Go on and forget about all my heartfelt notes and the Nike shirts
Combin' racks for your patterned Calvin Kleins
The symbiotic bond you said you had
With the body you held in Vegas that one night

My love never knew any shame
I dropped everything any time you ever needed me
Do you really need to pick back up
With the cryptic texts you were always feedin' me

Oh was I really just a placeholder
'Til you found the one you were waitin' for
And now I'm left to wonder, honey
Have you told her
All the secrets you used to tell me
All the sweet nothin's I wished you would
Now I'm older
It's my time to own somethin' I've always known
I'm not a placeholder
Placeholder...

Oh-oh-ooh-ooh

Every time I exit off the 710, I'm haunted
Drivin' by the bluffs, I think of long walks on the beach
A hand that I could never hold was all I ever wanted
I relished every touch but you were always out of reach

You'd brush my cheek and laugh it off
I'd die a little more inside
Pull me to the sand only to
Draw another f*ckin' line

Always dancin' 'round it
You were always dancin' 'round it
Always dancin' 'round it
You were always dancin' 'round it

Always dancin' 'round it
Always dancin' 'round it
Always dancin' 'round it...

But I refuse to be a placeholder
Now you found the one you were waitin' for
Can't waste any more time wonderin'
Have you told her
All the empty lines you'd tell me
All the sweet somethin's I wished you could
Now I'm older
It's my time to own somethin' I've always known
I'm not a
I'm not a
I'm not a...