Jae.Joven - From Within Lyrics

Ay, oh, i said good lord
Boy you need to watch yo' mouth, now this a windy road
This a open note
This a open note
This might open doors, I think they really know
And I ain't drippin' gold, but I be shinnin' greater
They should f*ckin' know, its a f*ckin' no brainer
I want it all and more, I had to get my weight up
I wish that I had known, my mind is never made up
Cold blooded might get bloody, cocaine got they nose runny
Binge on it, just to reach summit
I don't need y'all, I don't need nothin'
Play my cards with no hallmark, setback with no relapse
These bitches be mad as hell, hit my phone and I don't read that
Money comin' and it never slowed, money comin' and it never go
Been a sinner but I let it show, callin' on me but you never rode
Whoa, met a couple like you, spin 'em in rotation
Now I'm done with all the chasin', and I'm killing all the traces

So I take two shots and then I lean back (Back, back, back)
Second chances I don't need that (Yeah)
If I come up let 'em swarm on the team
If I make a hundred thousand, let it rain on 'em man
'Cause I was born to f*cking fly on this cloud nine
And the music bangin' through the stages of the whole night
Dream-life been my mission, never finished, had to get it how I live
Happiness is not struggle when you livin' from within

This how life go, mine's on life support
Looking back through the side door
Spent long nights with my eyes open
Popped a pill and it dawned on me, been this way since a young boy
Called me out on the same story, I replied in my calm voice
And I want love but i just don't
These ladies wanna play dirty, no dish soap
Hips is movin', I've been zoned, in a cold sweat, she didn't bring her soul
What am I paying for?
In her city with my hands full, what a gamble
But i ran on, and I'm stayin' low, when my head gone
Cut ya name out like the middleman
Listen here, I'm an animist, sippin' amethyst
Conversations with my parents tryin' talk me out of this
But I end up running back to this
And spend it all on accident
Accumulating damages
Fulfilling all my fantasies
The reign gon' fall so wrathfully
I kill this shit so naturally
They go and try to prove themselves, they'll never be the half of me
Rap's sounding like rhapsody, I got the crown like cavities
They praying on my casualty, but this is what they asked of me

So I take two shots and then I lean back (Back, back, back)
Second chances I don't need that (Yeah)
If I come up let 'em swarm on the team
If I make a hundred thousand, let it rain on 'em man
'Cause I was born to f*cking fly on this cloud nine
And the music bangin' through the stages of the whole night
Dream-life been my mission, never finished, had to get it how I live
Happiness is not struggle when you livin' from within

Mind no hater
It's a cold lake I'll let 'em all drown, would you calm down?
I make the paper and its all mine
Been a long while
It's a long night
Missing all the old times, been missing you since 09
Contraband my whole life, sit in court like "oh why?"
Stay afloat, and never fold, you gotta get ya own shine
Promised not to drop us, what you need upon command?
And at some point your heart was breakin' cuz I swore to be your man
And it could of been a setup, woulda never known
Had to get my head up, had a head hope
Had to understand it when I had go
Running independent, never had a vote
Hard to fix it, need an antidote
This, remember, was a common goal, when the problems on ya gotta let em go
I've seen a lot of ghosts, I've seen a lot of ghosts
And then betrayed your trust and never had emotion
Falling back here 'cause I caught the potion, just remember all the lies you throwin'
Striking out here with your altered motives
Yeah, motherf*ckers wanna
Wanna see him go fall in the state of mind
But I'm never really falling, I'm descending by
Make an appearance when I'm winning
But you've never been a friend of mine