love isn't real Video (MV)

Often I am upset
That I cannot fall in love but I guess
This avoids the stress of falling out of it
Love isn't real
What's the big deal
That's how I feel
Will I be healed
Everyone's been looking my way
While I've been trying to put a fake smile on my face
Now I just feel like I'm a disgrace
I've been trying to go on all of these dates
But they end up all being the same
I'm just hoping something will change
I'm just trying to be embraced
Sadly love is just one big game
I've been hiding the shame and fighting the pain
Will I be saved
I'm just really afraid
I'm just trying to be brave
I used to think about my mom and dad when I thought about love
Cause it seemed like no matter what happened they always made it above
But now they getting ready to split
I guess this is really the end
Now I'm just wondering
Was it even worth it
All of the long nights
All of these stupid fights
So let me be clear
You're just telling me that over the years the love that y'all had for each other was never real
Maybe that's what I need to feel
Someone who's gonna love me
So I can be healed
Yeah
Often I am upset
That I cannot fall in love but I guess
This avoids the stress of falling out of it
Look
I've been feeling the worst
Because all of the hurt
I just got it all built up and it feels like I'm about to burst
But I've been putting the fake smile on my face to hide
All of the pain
All of the shame
But I know that deep down inside I've been singing
Love isn't real
What's the big deal
That's how I feel
Will I be healed
Everyone's been looking my way
While I've been trying to put a fake smile on my face
Now I just feel like I'm a disgrace
That I'm a disgrace
Ya