Jay10 - 4AM in Neverland (feat. SomaDina) Lyrics

I hate the lights take me back to the sheets
In the nights I never sleep I write tracks for the peace
As a kid I saw a ghosts I never happened to meet
They were present like some gifts I didnt have to receive
I had to believe that they were sent by the gods
Standing by my side in all the times I felt lost
Suicidal thoughts and I was wondering what is the cost of the life I was living
Running from the clocks and the time I was given
I tried to cut it short
My brothers in the field but I've been running from the courts
He's got couple whips that I never could afford
A lot of thoughts in my mind that I wished I could abort
I spent a life on the sidelines
Scrolling on the timeline
Staring at my brother as he was standing in the limelight
I'm used to the shadows
Used to the dark
I've a got a lot of things I used to feel in my heart
It almost tore me apart
Tore me to shreds
I've got a lot of shit I shouldn't keep in my head
4am I can't sleep in the bed
I'm another lost boy I don't know I'm being led
Will I get to neverland where I'll neverland
Looking at my dad can I be a better man
Will I get to Neverland where I'll Neverland
Or will I get high in the hopes i never land
Peter Pan am I addicted to the green
I spend days in the cloud Im imprisoned in a dream
Singing in the trees because I'm a victim to the scene
Hoping I could run from all the shit that I had seen
But I can't, I'm followed the Demons
I am Running from the rain but I've been followed by the seasons
In my toughest moment is when my followers are leaving
I've got a lot of dick riders and some swallowers of semen
Tell me what do you believe in
Do you wanna hear the truth or do you fear what you're perceiving
And will I be known for my achievements on the day of my bereavement
Or will they just be happy that I'm leaving
Another boy that should've listened to his teachers
Born for the bench and imprisoned in the bleachers
Looking for my Wendy that was wishing for a peter
I wish I didn't lose her when they told me she's a keeper
It tore me to shreds
I've got a lot of shit I shouldn't keep in my head
4am I can't sleep in the bed
I'm another lost boy I don't know I'm being led
Will I get to neverland where I'll neverland
Looking at my dad can I be a better man
Will I get to neverland where I'll Neverland
Or will I get high in the hopes i never land
It almost tore me apart
Tore me to shreds
I've got a lot of shit I shouldn't keep in my head
4am I can't sleep in the bed
I'm another lost boy I didn't know I'm being led
Will I get to neverland where I'll neverland
Looking at my dad can I be a better man
Will I get to neverland where I'll Neverland
Or will I get high in the hopes i never land
Stay strong through the tears and the laughter
Praying wishing for my happy ever after
Hooked to the darkness, tinker for light
Said its always greener on the other side
I guess not
Let the tonic flow and fill in my cup
Let the feelings flip and feast in my gut
High like rapture
Hope I make it down to green pastures