JesseMelancholy - wings Lyrics

I can't be there for you, i'm not even there for myself
I can't be there for you, i'm not even there for myself

I miss my internet friends, i'm doing my best to pass all the time
Until the day i see your face left behind (oh-woah)
I want to spread my wings, you cut them off my body
Hearing you speak is really just a hobby
And i can quit that at any given point in time

I can't be there for you, i'm not even there for myself
(god knows i wish you well, ooh)
I can't be there for you, i'm not even there for myself
(i don't wanna ooh-ooh-ooh)
I can't be there for you, when i'm not there for myself
I already said that i can't be there for you, if i'm not there for myself

I'm glad that we spoke but truly you make me bored
I'm far from the joke, the one that you'll play me for
And i want to know, what am i waiting for?
Cover up my skin so you won't hate me more

(i can't be there for you)
When i'm not there for me (ah)
Hate my worn out skin and my grin and my f*cked up teeth
(ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
Yeah, i don't know what to wear and the time is getting scary now
Leave my house again, it'll probably wear me down
Joke of the high-school, everybody's laughing
Sorry i despise you, where is my compassion?

(everything i say - i can't be there for you)
(everything i do - ooh-ooh-ooh)

I don't want to be a girl, i don't want to be a boy
I don't want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
I don't want to be a girl, i don't want to be a boy
I don't want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
I don't want to be a girl, i don't want to be a boy
I don't want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
I don't want to be a girl, i don't want to be a boy
I don't want to be myself, i just-i just-i just

(ooh) and you put me in a box (oh)
But you'll never keep it locked (oh)
See my city getting scared 'cause my shit f*cking knocks
And you were never there go and kick f*cking rocks
(uh-huh) i just want to be myself, wish i knew who that was
Change the pigment of my hair, do it again in a couple months
And you just want me there but i can't be there for you, no
(i can't be there for you)
(uh) miss me with that 9 to 5, my ceiling has come alive
You wish we were fortified, i think there is more to life
I just want to sleep but everybody's watching
Want to spread my wings, you cut them off my body

(oh)
(oh)
(oh)
(oh)

Shaking and i'm scared, i feel it in my lungs, i'll take a deep breath in
And play that i don't care but f*ck me, am i dumb? because i always did
I want my tongue unbitten and i really want to speak it
I want to say "it's fine" i want to really mean it
I want all of the flaws on my body deleted
I want to draw a line, i want your eyes to see it
I want to make friends with all the streetlights
Ginger in my tea, half the screen time
Do i want to change, or do i want to hide?
Do i need the space, or did i tell a lie?
Petrified of compliancy and the complacency
Won't put your blind eyes on something you weren't made to see
And that's okay with me
Yeah, that's okay with me

(everything i say, everything i do, everything i say, everything i do)