Not Dying Video (MV)

I was waiting for your call
I was starting to get nervous
Sitting like a cannonball
In the water, heaven help us

She can take another drink
She can crack another smile
Sit and stare, not listening
Sit and chain-smoke for a while

I don't know if I'm dead or dying
I don't know if I'm dead or dying

Left the lights on, dead asleep
Burning holes in this old mattress
Cigarettes and cheap whiskey
Litter backyards filled with ashes

I don't know if I'm dead or dying
I don't know if I'm dead or dying

I was dead before I could even see
I was dead before I could fall asleep

3AM comes much too quickly
When you can't sleep with peace
That old box of rusted-out razors
Was the best give I ever received

I don't know if I'm dead or dying
I don't know if I'm dead or dying