J.Ice - #Sayno Lyrics

When I show up the party's going
I don't know why I showed up to this
I'm 19, I'm still young
So I told myself no getting lit
But my adrenaline is flowing
I begin to feel the bliss
Who had taught me this
My family raised me better but I start to slip

This has been my limit
No intentions ever taking steps
To anything that's bigger
Than the smoke that I mix with my breath
Nothing's left, I guess the party's over now
Ain't it funny how the alcoholics taking over now

Pour my drink, this is legal
Or I think, was I played
I don't know, I don't even like the taste
Alcohol it comes with age
But it's cool, all my friends around the school
Drink this stuff, all the time
Talking Bud Light with the lime

I don't want to be made fun of
I'm not trying to go home crying
People leaving thinking where am I to sleep
And I don't even have a ride
To get back to my people, legs are feeble
This should be a crime, this should really be illegal
I can barely seem to walk straight
I notice people all wait
On my by the table I think maybe I'll stay
What is this, a surprise
I cannot believe my eyes, I'm so hype
To consume these Columbian white lines

Look at everybodies eyes, they're so wide
But look at the time
It's still crucial to my family that
I make it home alive
They don't know I'm here, they don't know if I'm alright
I've snuck out the house like, one too many times
But it's fine, what they don't know cannot hurt them
Or at least that's what I'm told
But these lines are getting bigger
These lines are getting really bold

What is this, I don't feel so good
I think I took too much
Boy shut up, don't you know that
We're just starting to have fun
Yea you're right, I should shut my mouth
As long as I see sun, tell me this
How much did I take
My vision starts to fade
Oh you're fine, you just did a couple lines
Maybe 2.8 you should maybe hit the brakes
It's getting late, drink some water
Alright maybe go a little farther it don't matter
You don't need a doctor

Hold up, I can't move, I need help
But I'm too afraid to ask for it
I know that I should be more smart
I know that I should handle this
I've heard it all before
I think an overdose is accurate
Maybe this is what it does
Maybe this is why their after it
I bet that's not accurate
I don't even like this stuff
It makes me feel like I had just consumed an elephant

Wait, I forgot
I had drank some alcohol
I heard that that is dangerous
I hear my savior start to call me home
Off this earth, I've not regret this much since birth
But I begin to tell myself that my life really isn't worth
Doing this, I had missed the point of no return
Close my eyes and feel my world around me start to burn

It's my fault, I'm to blame
I'm the reason no one came
To my aid, all I think to do is pray
To the lord, that when I close my eyes
I plead and pray my soul to take
Contemplate, is this how it ends
Is this final destination
Is this where I meet my fate?

I wake up, where am I
Am I dead or still alive
Am I lowly, am I fly
Pray to God up in the sky
That I choose my friends more wisely
They dispise that I'm bigger I'm more wise
Than to put myself around the people
That keep their interest over mine

I could have kicked the bucket I got lucky
You act like this entire situation isn't sucky
Ain't it something
You put your want of drugs above me
I could have died, don't you see that you're the reason why
You weren't concerned with me, you just wanted to get high
Why not stop me at the alcohol, that's my downward fall
Clearly not in the right mind at all
To make choices for myself

I should have made the call to my friend
To my buddy that could get me out of something muddy
Cause he loves me he got pissed at me
For never calling when I got myself in nothing lovely
I need to keep my mind above me