John Yup - to be alive Lyrics

Why they are so big?
How I would feel if I where one of them?
"Be happy, you're loved"
That's what they say
But what love means to me
If it makes me sick?
I went to your house last night
It was creepy, because no one was there
That's a hole I put myself in
I'm the only one that doesn't love me

I don't, I don't believe in people
'Cause people are the biggest liars
Honestly this isn't life
I will live in my room, goodbye
I don't, I don't believe in love
Because love are the biggest lie
I don't want to die
But honestly I don't want to be alive
To be alive

I wish I could kill the demons
Under my bed
'Cause in the and of the world
They are my best friends
And my smile is fake all the time
My love is just another f*cking crime
Bro, you made me feel like dying
But I'm still the only one who doesn't love me