Jon's - Painful Lyrics

I've had enough
I can't afford to call another bluff
Keep getting stuck
She told me not to roll another blunt
There's too many rules
I won't make through the summer
If I can't get another dose I'll be f*cked
I didn't really notice
Til she told me it's important
No I can't afford the bad luck
I just wanna go home
Its all to much on my own
Tell me I should move slow
But you stole my mode of control
I can't afford to lose this time
I know
I'd just like to think that I
Could cope
You could've told me
That it was a trap so you could hold me
Cause it gets lonely
When every one is sober
But I always keep on
Falling right in
If we could just be friends
I wouldn't need to go through
Every little f*cking thing in my head
Taking medicine, but the doc
Don't prescribe it cause I keep on
Taking hits of my pen
You really showed me
You know we only think about ourselves
But I'm a phony
I don't feel anything I just know
I can't afford to lose this time
I know
I'd just like to think that I
Could cope
When I'm too far gone
And the bottles empty
I just want to know
How'd this shit just
Get so god damn painful
It's time I forget you now
Trade pills out for something else
It's too late to save myself
But I'm still alive somehow
Painful
I can't afford to lose this time
I know
I'd just like to think that I
Could cope
When I'm too far gone
And the bottles empty
I just want to know
How'd this shit just
Get so god damn painful