Jordy C - Confused Lyrics

I don't really trust you, but I know I love you
I don't really trust you though, will love overcome it?
LDR, do you think we'll overcome it too?
Hope I'm ready to give it all for you
Is it meant to be? is it meant for me?
Everything we've been through hurt me mentally
Wish it had been smooth, oh so heavenly
But you're always in my mind like a melody
There's a side you show to others that you don't show to me
I've shown you all of me, that's how it's supposed to be
I wanna tell you there's no need to people please
Cause now I don't know if you're really all for me
We've been through it all was it really worth it
Was it real love or was lust lurking
When you're emotional, you may look for a better person
Leave me all alone in darkness while I'm steady hurtin'
Please don't take me back, I don't wanna go there
I was all alone, had to face all my fears
I had no one to wipe my tears
Only God with me while I recite prayers
When I think I know you then you switch up
What happens if you do that while I'm in love?
How will I be sure that you won't change?
That you won't throw me backstage?
I just wanna love and not hurt you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I promise that now I'll be see-through
Cause girl, you know that I need you
Is it meant to be? is it meant for me?
Everything we've been through hurt me mentally
Wish it had been smooth, oh so heavenly
But you're always in my mind like a melody
Wish I could give you the world for real
I pray you'll be my wife for real
Nothing's felt this right for real
I need you in my life for real
I won't rest until I buy you a Mini Cooper
But for now you'll have to take Ubers