Jose Xavier - Destroy (feat. Madi Swan) Lyrics

If I ain't have you in this life
Then I'll don't know what I'll do
My past keep weighing down
I wanna walk in my truth
I been racing with these demons
I'm in fear I might lose
Unlearned a lot of shit
I thought I knew in my youth
But I been waking up
Sometimes I fake the funk
These rhymes ain't made up enough
Grandma might say I'm dumb
Hope you don't feel the same
My thoughts just in a bunch
I ain't been right since October 6
On the day you died
I feel like life just been full of shit since the you died
I spend my nights getting blunted up trying to stay alive
Graduating, I anticipated
Since it happened, it's been bad times
I just went to see the grave site
Think about you every day and night
I remember when I made Cycles
In the bed crying on the day you died
You and Granny, y'all would stay fighting
But she was right there by your bed side
Probably love you more than I did
Hope you never had to second guess
From the heavens you can the mess
Probably safe to say that I'm a bit depressed
Thoughts of ending, barely getting rest
I been thinking is it worth the stress
Closest ones'll make it the best
Save yourself and let him burn the rest
Then have no regret
Off the deep end
If you seen me then you know I'm at a low
Devil round' the corner, leave me lone'
When you got so many secrets but no one for them to hold
Impossible that you won't feel alone
Having real problems since a lil' child
It's been some years
Lot of tears falling
Lost my real father
This ain't real
Having real problems since a lil' child
It's been some years
Lost my real father
Lot of tears falling
This ain't real