Just Asleep - Deaf Lyrics

I've been searching for some sort of meaning
Something that I can't always see
Something that I know will always be
In silence
But I just can't get over the feeling
That all I have is the places I'll be
All I have is the things that I think
In silence
How much
How long
Will it take?
How much
How long
Till it breaks?
I don't want to have any possessions
I wish I could get rid of everything
I wish I could just leave it all here
In silence
I don't want you to worry about nothing
Cause I worry about everything
I don't think what I have is what I'll keep
Just silence
How much
How long
Will it take?
How much
How long
Till it breaks?
It's all going away I swear
I hear everything falling apart
My head's in the state of my heart
It's silent
If I'm leaving today then I swear
I'll try my best to behave and do what
I'm told for once
Never even standing up
See my emptiness
This heart is deaf
I can't forget
What you said
It's all in my head
Don't tell me when
You're leaving
Just go quiet