Intro Video (MV)

Hey man I had one hell of a year
It's pretty hard to be a man when you're filled up with tears
It's pretty hard to be chilling when you don't like your peers
Especially when you know you should be switching them gears
Depression hit me bad ended up in the hospital
Physical mental breakdown till I made it to the musical
The way I deal with being down is quite lyrical
How should I deal with my life? That was rhetorical
Because I've been in some weird places
Behind some cheered faces
And some killed hatred
Like I've never seen these paces
I've done so many quick replacements
But never got noticed for my achievements
Cause
My body's in pain
I've been storming for days
Went from blowing some pays
To be loaning and payin
I've been going insane
It's quite boring and plain
When your in your stories in canes
Cause you can't stand up
Trust me when it comes to people
They don't really care
You're here
They're not even there
Face fears?
They won't even dare
It's kinda funny how they be only walking in pairs
My hearing's impaired
Cause I couldn't listen to anything with the stories I've shared
I had to be walking around like I don't really care
It's like living life knowing that I don't wanna be here I wanna be elsewhere
It's getting me nowhere get your life together
And grow a pair instead of sitting and thinking of sinking
While knowing you are clever
You know you are better
You know you are never
Gonna get out of the shelter
If you don't strive for bigger
Even better It's like you never ever had the passion to follow your dreams
Everybody calls you obscene
Calls your tantrums mean
Calls you up on the scene
You know what? Keep sipping on your lean
Always was an introvert
This is just my intro and my intro hurts
Spitting different flows but the same old jerk
Please don't make me go back to the lame old verse
Always felt like I was cursed
Till I fell and it got worse
Felt in hell but just got burn
Don't you dare To yell I'll teach you first
I'm not getting on my knees settling and praying
I guess I'm the only one that I'm actually playin
Cause when I look at the bill I'm the one that's paying
Most of you guys you don't even know what I'm sayin
Sometimes I kinda wish that I'd be insane
Drop my whole life finding a way and
Just something that would get me somewhere that's safe and
Build back my memories from the one place that's sane
God I just wish things were different
Not fighting and struggling to see a parent
I've been hustling and juggling to not even care
I kinda had lost myself and that's not even fair