K Syntax - Shame Lyrics

Look
I was raised in a jungle
Bit by snakes but I still stay humble
Had my call now it's time to rumble
You're getting it worse if your raps are mumble
Left and right make a big man stumble
I got grown regrets, I'm known to flex but deep down I'm so depressed
I show the best but you don't even know me yet
My flow's a death-trap so I overstep
My life's a riddle so I'm fiddling with these
Thoughts all up in my head telling me I need to leave
So much pain now I'm struggling to breathe
I don't care about fame I write rhymes for me
So many nights I've been feeling alone
You're gonna hear how I feel in this song
Tryna be good feeling misunderstood
No one cares if I'm here (Oh, well maybe I'm wrong)
Every thought is a battle, every breath is a war
I don't think I can take any more
Every one looks to me like I'm free but inside I don't know what I'm doing this for
I know so many that want me to quit, I admit
I've never been chatty, I've never been happy
I hate myself but it's nothing like Maddie
There's stress on my back that I have to carry

You see me smile but I really wanna cry (Yeahh)
Cause in this life I feel I'm always asking 'why' (Ooh)
I can't take this anymore
I escape by writing more

I keep a lot to myself but I spill everything on a track
I hope they listen to me when I rap
I keep it real
Far from perfect I know how you feel
Everyone wants to be perfect
But what does it look like?
I'm on a search like NF for my worth nothing less
Neglected my success for some friends now I put up a good fight (Argh)
I don't want the clout
I'm making noise and I don't have to shout
All of the music I make is distinctive in taste with a message, it's nothing like Aitch
That ain't a diss I'm just saying
I hope I don't miss when I'm spraying
Lord, forgive me I wanna be free
Tell me how to survive if I feel like this life ain't for me

You see me smile but I really wanna cry (Yeahh)
Cause in this life I feel I'm always asking 'why' (Ooh)
I can't take this anymore
I escape by writing more