Blame Video (MV)

I just sit in my room and I just contemplate
Cause I'm surprised I'm still alive to see the brighter days
I'm hoping God don't take my shine away
Cause I've been trying to hide my darkest days

They show some love but I think they lying right away
And it's sickening
Is this the world I'm living in?
I'm ashamed

Guess I'm the one you should blame
Cause I let it slide way too many times
They took advantage of my kindness
But now I'm numb, they say I changed up now

And I don't really wanna stay around
It's like they kids & my heart their playing around
It's like I got nothing left
I don't feel so impressed

They done showed me what they got
And I'm like, okay, what's next?
My heart been broke so many times
She had me playing the bench

And that shit had me upset
I've been living, don't wanna live no more
I've been put in second place so many times
I'm tired of keeping score

Like, damn it man, it feels so wrong
But I've been keeping strong
I don't know why I'm losing my mind
I'm trying to be with you

But you treating me so cruel
I don't know what to do
I'm hoping I'm the one you choose
But I can't put the blame on you

I don't know why I'm still trying for you
I can't put the blame on you
I don't know why I'm still trying for you
I wrote this letter cause I can't see you now

And I'm sorry for the way I acted
I was acting wild
I just wanna see you smile
Because it's been a while

The way I'm feeling now
Shit I be in the clouds
Cause if I come down I might feel it
All these feelings I'm pushing away

All the memories of us laying down late at night
And you telling me it was just me
Yeah, I messed it all up
It's my fault

That you went with him and not me
And I can't put the blame on you
Cause maybe if I stepped up in your shoes
I'd see the way I f*cking treated you

You told me you felt used
And maybe that's the truth
Cause I was getting over her
And I just needed you

You never know you had a good girl
Until you lose her
I was stuck in toxic ways
Oh man, I feel ashamed

Damn it, I do
And if I could go change the past
Then I'd choose you
God works in mysterious ways

Sometimes you don't get what you want in life
And that's the way it goes
And you just gotta move on
All I ever did was show you true love

I don't think I can ever trust a man
Because of all the lies you told me
I hate you so much, KARINE
Because of all the lies you told me

You ruined me
Way too many times
Way too many times
And I can't put the blame on you

I don't know why I'm still trying for you
Cause I can't put the blame on you
I don't know why I'm still trying for you