It was, something different, you dig it like it was written
The middle of little Italy, never clicked what was spinning
You feel it, in every rhythm and every thing that was hitting
You think of many decisions and any thing could be missing
From this life, yo any piece of the puzzle
Need to take a jump back we're stuck so deep in this muddle
When did it change, from being just two feet in a puddle
Now you're drowning, can't swim, tryna breathe, it's a struggle
Sink or swim you go the distance, giving in isn't coherent
Entered in the beginning and finished after your children
Ringing out in your ears since the very first time you hear it
Yo this is why you are living, a gift it is and it isn't
What is life? Why is it even a struggle
I dunno where I'm headed, or if I'm seeing things double
I'm tryna build a plan like I got the team in a huddle
Wish I was eating some freaking pizza falling asleep with a chuckle
(But I'm lost)
When you can't seem to sleep and your mind will not settle down
(Cause I'm lost)
You're living in a dream, need to shut all the feelings out
(Man I'm lost)
I've tried for days and days to figure this shit out
(Yo I'm lost)
The road you travelled on does not seem to end
(Please help me, please help me)
I'm waiting for the day where I can say I'm not lost
Feeling all alone even though I know I'm not
Got so many people who I'm surrounded by a lot
I just don't understand why my mind is getting crossed, yo
Living my life, doing it right, keeping myself on the top
Even though I plan it out, ideas always seem to drop
Put in the work, earning my perks, tryna be climbing the rocks
Even though I had it locked, I gotta be staying out the box
Raw energy in my mind, brain and head
But I feel I can't use it when everyone else is dead
People stabbing up, shooting heartache, shooting led
All that gets me gassed up whilst I'm lying in my bed
I'll never let myself follow all the other sheep
I can do it on my own when I kick it with the sweep
I'm staying with my eyes open, you can all stay asleep
I know it's only me right before I take the leap
(But I'm lost)
When you can't seem to sleep and your mind will not settle down
(Cause I'm lost)
You're living in a dream, need to shut all the feelings out
(Man I'm lost)
I've tried for days and days to figure this shit out
(Yo I'm lost)
The road you travelled on does not seem to end
(Please help me, please help me)
I came into this so full of energy and desperation
Soul filled with hope, expect to make it
I was writing so fast like my pen Jamaican
Now 5 years later it's just my head is aching
And at night I'm sitting there for bare hours awake
I feel like peace being guarded by some towering gates
Goals used to be obvious like putting flour in cake
But now I'm trapped by my thoughts asking how I escape
As I sit, tryna figure out just how to move on
Flip the switch just keep going not allowed to lose cause
What I think? They said I couldn't got a vow to prove wrong
This is it! The time is here, the time is now to shoot strong
I've given it my all and then some but where has it got me now
I'm just tired and alone, but can it cop me crowds?
It's draining from my spirit like I'm slamming vodka down
I'm just dreaming of the day that I am not lost, but found
When you can't seem to sleep and your mind will not settle down
(Cause I'm lost)
You're living in a dream, need to shut all the feelings out
(Man I'm lost)
I've tried for days and days to figure this shit out
(Yo I'm lost)
The road you travelled on does not seem to end
(Please help me, please help me)