Dead Inside Video (MV)

Yo
Everyday I hang around my Ex, I'm dying. I know it
But hey... It's a mutual exchange
Talk the day away, eat, or f*ck
Who are you to be the judge?
But there SHE goes pointing fingers in my face
"You lying, cheating f*ck!" Ugh!
I'm single... and amazed you don't see the pattern
And yet, you think I'm playing games like Chutes and Ladders
I rather puke a donkey's dick than to get hitched!
That's not rocket science-- that's the truth of matters!
And I barely make a song, 'cause we work the same job
And I don't want to hear your thoughts
This is not a topic for debate. As soon as this records
My ears are turning off! I got problems to be solved!
I'm rooted in my belief, that one day we'll be moving on
My train of thought is not a ride you'd want to get aboard
I can fix anything you need, not including us
My care is there, but the karma's building up
I got to jump. F*ck!

I've lost my love at times... I
See the spark has left my eyes.... My
Soul is there but my heart ain't trying
I'm living life, but I'm dead inside
Feels like things just won't change
I hope this feeling fades 'fore I hit my grave
If you feel the same, just as I
We're living life, but we're dead inside

It's days like this I don't understand why the f*ck
I'm here living reruns of problems I can't solve
I'm already stressed! Masturbating to porn ain't working a bit
At first, it was this verse that I spit
The person addressed is hurt from this shit
Meanwhile, I think of Ashleigh... I thought she was it, but
I sabotaged it all between us... She was perfect as shit
But she don't know it... I'm think it's just things were moving too fast
I got that ass and caught feelings... Intelligent black queen
I'm conditioned to white-- Conflicted inside, I hurt you
And now I'm gripping this mic and not you... Oh, what a price
I thought of making a pact with the dark side to get back with you
Stay silent and manage the evil spirits, in tandem to making
Love with you animalistically. But, you hate me
And I don't think we'll be able to meet up ever
And maybe that's not so bad... 'Cause you're safe from me
And my silver tongue. I still remember the taste of that sweet pussy cum
Mmmm... I sorry... Apologies. My soul is torn to shreds
I'm Voldemort, and my diary is public to those in need
Of song that's inspired to be a means of understanding
You got dreams but you're hating on yourself
Or regret a choice you made, and so you place it on a shelf
A hall of shame. A wall you made to block the world out
To protect yourself from further pain... Yea
Can't say that I don't understand it
That's the reason that I stroke this pen across computer paper
My mind is f*cked, so this ream should match it!
F*ck the world! Maybe, yea! My middle finger actually
Flies high in the faces of the judging masses!
I'm constantly told that I sound like Mr. Mathers
Is that a compliment or diss?! What the f*ck's it matter?
I'm making songs for those who are all alone inside their head
Overwhelmed by the noises going on inside it! Oh yea
And f*ck the vines and memes... Not all of us are happy
And that's the human being experience. So
If you're told to smile, flip them off
And turn your volume f*cking loud and drown them out!
'Cause sometimes... you need a feeling this strong
You feel the same? Then please sing along

I've lost my love at times... I
See the spark has left my eyes.... My
Soul is there but my heart ain't trying
I'm living life, but I'm dead inside
Feels like things just won't change
I hope this feeling fades 'fore I hit my grave
If you feel the same, just as I
We're living life, but we're dead inside

I've got no love inside
The spark has left my eyes
No need to dive my grave
'Cause I'm alive... I'm just dead inside