Most days I hate myself
I wish I was someone else
I look in the mirror and I
I just wanna cry
Maybe I need some help
To save me from this hell
But they don't understand
How it feels
They say, "Love yourself, it ain't that hard"
But they can't see the broken parts
Stabbing me right in the heart
It ain't easy to fix a thing
Permanent like self esteem
When you're already twenty
Insecurities are eating me alive
And it feels like there's nowhere to hide
Maybe I just need to grow some thicker skin
I'd probably like it better than the skin that I'm in
I have a bad habit of
Thinking I'm not worthy of love
So I push people away
When I need them to stay
I never open my mouth
To let my feelings out
Afraid you'll think I'm just
Dramatic
They say, "Speak your mind if you wanna be heard"
But I can't seem to find the words
Open mouth but my mind's a blur
Emotions trapped inside of me
Chained to insecurities
Will I ever set them free?
Insecurities are eating me alive
And it feels like there's nowhere to hide
Maybe I just need to grow some thicker skin
I'd probably like it better than the skin that I'm in
I don't wanna die
I just need to cry
And that may sound strange
I've got to learn in life
That I can try and try
But some things never change
Insecurities are eating me alive
And there won't ever be a place to hide
Maybe I just need to learn to live with them
Because there is no changing who I am
I wish I'd known that wasn't a bad thing